Ok.
I am definitely more social right now. And I feel pretty comfortable around new people but I have yet to go out and test things at a bar or club. I'm just going to make sure when I go I'm only going to check out the live band or watch a football game or something. But socializing is becoming easier.
But, today I felt off about something. I was filming a show for my work. I was with a few others from the production crew at this Quail hunting plantation. I was interviewing and filming the cook who was an older attractive women. Her and her assistant were very much attracted to me because of not just my aura but my actual vibe I was projecting. It was just so easy to converse with them when it was just me and them. I actually wanted to go for it but I started thinking and feeling inadequate I guess. But I do know I had a strong desire to push the interactions pretty far but I consciously knew I had a job to do and it wasn't hard to talk myself out of it because that's usually what feels normal -_-; . Plus there were other factors involved such as me thinking "crap, they may say something to their boss who will say something to my boss" if anything was to happen.
But I'm not even half way through this set yet! I definitely love stage 3.
I am definitely more social right now. And I feel pretty comfortable around new people but I have yet to go out and test things at a bar or club. I'm just going to make sure when I go I'm only going to check out the live band or watch a football game or something. But socializing is becoming easier.
But, today I felt off about something. I was filming a show for my work. I was with a few others from the production crew at this Quail hunting plantation. I was interviewing and filming the cook who was an older attractive women. Her and her assistant were very much attracted to me because of not just my aura but my actual vibe I was projecting. It was just so easy to converse with them when it was just me and them. I actually wanted to go for it but I started thinking and feeling inadequate I guess. But I do know I had a strong desire to push the interactions pretty far but I consciously knew I had a job to do and it wasn't hard to talk myself out of it because that's usually what feels normal -_-; . Plus there were other factors involved such as me thinking "crap, they may say something to their boss who will say something to my boss" if anything was to happen.
But I'm not even half way through this set yet! I definitely love stage 3.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
