Mystic Pymp on DMSI 2.4→2.5→3.0.1A→3.1A/B→3.2A/B→3.3D→3.3.1D

[Mystic Pymp]

Pause in DMSI exposure is not giving me any favors. I became a ball of nerves. While DMSI was helping me to deal with them now without that help and still exposed to all my emotional problems I fell terrible. Yesterday I was talking with my mother about my future, how in half a year I will get my Masters degree and I'll have to probably go somewhere out into the unknown world and how I'm scared of it and I started crying. It was the first time I was crying during a conversation since a long time, I cannot even remember when exactly. Also any and all attempts to make something out of my relationship with my ex goes to the gutter and while I still hold my position that we should be trying I don't think there is much sense in it.

In moments like these I have no idea what to do, I want to just lay under the sheets and protects myself from all this crap. I cannot though. All I can do is cry in silence and keep going trying all my best not to hit emotional rock bottom.

EDIT: Now I remember when I felt like this the last time and it was really not that long ago! 6 weeks ago in fact. It's funny how quickly I forgot about that cap. Thankfully now I remember how I dealt with that back then and it gives me s**ttons of hope. Funny how sometimes writing your thoughts down can help.