11-23-2016, 04:03 PM
Pretty crazy day today. There's a lot on my mind but sometimes I feel like I should stop thinking and let my actions do the talking... I feel like I'm doing all the right things but it's different from how everyone else would do it so it feels wrong I have to trust myself I'm alone but exactly what I want to be at the same time. Some times the pain that comes up feels worse then my livelihood being at stake but I think "I should just die" for a brief moment before continuing like this. I really hope my time off AM isn't killer. I've thought to myself I'm at my best when running AM so being off it would hurt, no?
