(11-22-2016, 02:46 AM)Benjamin Wrote: Had a strange thing with E2 today Shannon and i'm curious why it might happen?
Something shifted last night, I become aware of it when it was happening. Then most of the morning I was really peaceful and calm and felt really good. 3 or so hours after getting up I thought "Ok i'll put E2 on for today" then not far into it I suddenly get depressed and feel horrible. I was like "damn, I would have rathered not play E2 for today and kept that calm feeling".
I've actually had this happen several times, feeling really good then I put E2 on and it goes downhill.
I've had this happen to me on any sub with a healing component. For me, it was like this:
Imagine you have an open, festering sore and apply some kind of cleaning agent on it. It burns like hell while you're cleaning it, and when you stop, it feels better. But... there's still infection there. It feels like relief because much of the infection's been cleansed. Once you apply the cleansing agent again, it starts to hurt all over again -- maybe even worse, because now you're going past the surface level infection and hitting the source.
E2 is that cleansing agent, removing all the nasty emotional trauma in your subconscious. It doesn't hurt as bad when you stop running it, but as soon as you run it again, you start to resist and feel that emotional pain again.
