11-21-2016, 02:18 AM
LTU Day 46
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Feeling like shit and insecure the last week.
Had a fallback with alcohol.
Also i went to visit some FB in another city, but she didnt wanne fuck me, and was rude sometimes,
she has other guys but always talking about marry me... Confuses me alot!
Probably I was to nice and boyfriend material, she keeps me on the long run and fucks other guys...
Fuck this not gonna write her again.
Also all my friends and wings here react strange to me and cut off contact.
Have been home for am family party, also tere everybody was very distant.
Feel like the last shit, everybody avoids me, i dont get any closer to my goals and get more and more insecure every day. Feels like i am developing social anxiety....
I am stoping LTU now for a while. Probably running some other sub in few weeks. Maybe AM6 again.
I just want a normal life like everyone else, having a social circle, some activities and a girlfriend...
Instead i am lying at home depressed, tired and lonely, dont have any otivation or power anymore.
Having vaation for 6 weeks in 10 day and still dont know where to go.
I want to go backpacking, some adventure, nature and hiking.
Thought about central america, but its dangerous and i dont speak spanisch
or Ethiopia, but alot of protest and rebels there aswell, so too dangerous...
Dont even feel like going away, i am to afraid
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Feeling like shit and insecure the last week.
Had a fallback with alcohol.
Also i went to visit some FB in another city, but she didnt wanne fuck me, and was rude sometimes,
she has other guys but always talking about marry me... Confuses me alot!
Probably I was to nice and boyfriend material, she keeps me on the long run and fucks other guys...
Fuck this not gonna write her again.
Also all my friends and wings here react strange to me and cut off contact.
Have been home for am family party, also tere everybody was very distant.
Feel like the last shit, everybody avoids me, i dont get any closer to my goals and get more and more insecure every day. Feels like i am developing social anxiety....
I am stoping LTU now for a while. Probably running some other sub in few weeks. Maybe AM6 again.
I just want a normal life like everyone else, having a social circle, some activities and a girlfriend...
Instead i am lying at home depressed, tired and lonely, dont have any otivation or power anymore.
Having vaation for 6 weeks in 10 day and still dont know where to go.
I want to go backpacking, some adventure, nature and hiking.
Thought about central america, but its dangerous and i dont speak spanisch
or Ethiopia, but alot of protest and rebels there aswell, so too dangerous...
Dont even feel like going away, i am to afraid
