This is the fourth night of stage 3 and I've been very much in the moment for the first 2 days. Today however had a tiny bit of neediness but I felt more direction for my life. I feel motivated and determined to make so much stuff happen it's ridiculous.
But tonight I didn't so much. I told myself if that one chick that works at the grocery store is there I might as well say whatsup to her (I think she's now a floor manager or supervisor). I ended up asking her where the peanuts were because I swear I couldn't find them, haha. Anyhow, she found them for me and right when she was in front of the aisle pointing me toward them I was about to ask her about her promotion or whatever. As I took a breath a group of people were just coming out of the aisle and the stopped right in front of her. I was obviously worried about what they thought I may have been doing talking to her like is he hitting on her. That's the first thing that came to mind but they could have thought that we were friends. Either way I was worried about what they think and I shouldn't have. I'm not pissed at myself though. I can't be. I've been able to before talk to new girls in front of strangers but I was just caught off guard by my own thoughts and lost the connection with the girl. Oh well, I'm pretty horny too. Looking at hot women's breasts and butts (of course after some sort of eye contact, maybe
) is something I do every day now blatently hoping they catch me. 
But tonight I didn't so much. I told myself if that one chick that works at the grocery store is there I might as well say whatsup to her (I think she's now a floor manager or supervisor). I ended up asking her where the peanuts were because I swear I couldn't find them, haha. Anyhow, she found them for me and right when she was in front of the aisle pointing me toward them I was about to ask her about her promotion or whatever. As I took a breath a group of people were just coming out of the aisle and the stopped right in front of her. I was obviously worried about what they thought I may have been doing talking to her like is he hitting on her. That's the first thing that came to mind but they could have thought that we were friends. Either way I was worried about what they think and I shouldn't have. I'm not pissed at myself though. I can't be. I've been able to before talk to new girls in front of strangers but I was just caught off guard by my own thoughts and lost the connection with the girl. Oh well, I'm pretty horny too. Looking at hot women's breasts and butts (of course after some sort of eye contact, maybe
) is something I do every day now blatently hoping they catch me.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
