11-03-2016, 05:44 PM
Now, it's differenttttt everything is not a transaction. Emotion for sex, money I was much more interested in getting a wealthy lover now it's just based on my own merit, just who I am. And that's what I was working for towards. Kind of like when you're in a group of five guys and there's a girl you just met and she chooses to touch, play footsies laugh and ask questions about you. Now I'm at a bar stage five drinking rum and Coke it really doesn't catch my attention reading any journals even Shannons. Finally got a day off after 7 days and it feels appropriate to post here. Now that I'm getting drunk. I usually pick up on references and nieche said there's nothing but boredom and struggle. A lot of people love AM but with all the mood changing it does feel like a struggle. When you transcend life everyday people can't help but look at you in awe ask the same questions over and over. The same comments. The same struggle other people go through when a new alpha comes around. I have good feeling about this new place though that people will accept me more rather than be afraid I love my life. People 30 years older than me struggle with their pride when it comes to me. Awh I just rmbrd how tired I get when drinking peace out
