Day 9
STM (55h 33m)
DAOS2 2nd Run (11h 9m)
Yesterday's a bit lax. I did not go out. I stayed home and did my morning routines. I was also able to do some of my most important tasks. But I could've done more if it weren't for the distractions—Facebook, procrastination, etc. Time isn't my luxury, I need to learn how to effectively manage such time-wasters.
I'll surely improve in game, I have no doubt about it, cus I'm serious on this area of my life now, and I'm tactical in my approach.
My being a virgin isn't a secret here, I had chances to lose it before but I didn't because it was my choice—an "ignorant choice" I'd say now. I remembered I haven't even tried using a condom down there.
Part of the distractions I met yesterday was porn. Some app brought me to some porn and I watched them for 30 minutes, approximately. The interesting thing is I watched them with this kind of attitude, Oh, that's interesting, rather than Oh! This makes me horny (but I know, I am). It seemed I was looking at it in an intellectual way.
Suddenly, I thought, In case I'd lay a girl this month, will I be able to use that right? So I took a condom (it's in my drawer for a year), watched a How To video, stimulated my genital 'til it's hard, then I put on the condom—that's easy. I looked at my dick, kind of admiring it. It's bigger than a lot of men's in many porns I'd watched before. I kind of murmured, You're not limp and will never be limp, father of thousand! I removed it from my dick, and then I slept. I didn't cum.
Before, when I start to touch it, there's no way I'd stop without ejaculating. Now, I feel I'm in control of my libido. This sub's amazing in this way.
STM (55h 33m)
DAOS2 2nd Run (11h 9m)
Yesterday's a bit lax. I did not go out. I stayed home and did my morning routines. I was also able to do some of my most important tasks. But I could've done more if it weren't for the distractions—Facebook, procrastination, etc. Time isn't my luxury, I need to learn how to effectively manage such time-wasters.
I'll surely improve in game, I have no doubt about it, cus I'm serious on this area of my life now, and I'm tactical in my approach.
My being a virgin isn't a secret here, I had chances to lose it before but I didn't because it was my choice—an "ignorant choice" I'd say now. I remembered I haven't even tried using a condom down there.
Part of the distractions I met yesterday was porn. Some app brought me to some porn and I watched them for 30 minutes, approximately. The interesting thing is I watched them with this kind of attitude, Oh, that's interesting, rather than Oh! This makes me horny (but I know, I am). It seemed I was looking at it in an intellectual way.
Suddenly, I thought, In case I'd lay a girl this month, will I be able to use that right? So I took a condom (it's in my drawer for a year), watched a How To video, stimulated my genital 'til it's hard, then I put on the condom—that's easy. I looked at my dick, kind of admiring it. It's bigger than a lot of men's in many porns I'd watched before. I kind of murmured, You're not limp and will never be limp, father of thousand! I removed it from my dick, and then I slept. I didn't cum.
Before, when I start to touch it, there's no way I'd stop without ejaculating. Now, I feel I'm in control of my libido. This sub's amazing in this way.
"I am developing into a high value Alpha Male..."
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