Shannon's Journal Discussion

[Shannon]

Going to go ahead and continue the pile on by saying my place, especially my bedroom is a complete disaster. I would be embarrassed for anyone to see it. I've suspected it was to prevent access to my bedroom...but still felt laziness or unmotivated to properly clean and organise my things and make the room actually presentable. In fact, a few times I've even considered switching to the housework sub to fix this as I consciously realise it's a roadblock to DMSI success.

I'm VERY happy to hear this will be addressed in V3. It's a SERIOUS issue for me, and would obviously derail what DMSI is trying to do or at least complicate logistics, quite obviously.

Also, I'm wondering since you said we should use V2.5 to be getting approached for sex, and V2.4 to focus on clearing etc., whether I should use V2.4 instead. It may not be realistic for me to get success on V2.5 currently I feel. Considering my personal issues, as well as simply options around me. And I now have only one possible girl that I'm attracted to that I see in person weekly that ISN'T in some form of a relationship, that I'm aware of anyway. I'd ask her out if I felt the program kicking in and upping my chances, but it doesn't seem to have changed my aura or created any possible attraction from her towards me I don't think. I'm waiting for something between her and I to FEEL different so I can feel her attracted beforehand to improve the chances, so far nothing. I just found out last week the other two I am interested in are already in relationships, so anything happening there isn't likely, forcing me to rethink things. That, and I really don't seem to be as bothered anymore about "getting women gogogogog" like I used to be before DMSI. That may be the design goal of being the pursued kicking in, and/or some sort of fear shutting it down, I don't know. But, I did have an odd situation on V2.5 6 days ago where I started out of nowhere thinking about my parents dying, and how awful that will be, and how it will happen eventually no matter what, and that had me crying. I haven't cried in years, I mean it, YEARS, horrible things have happened since, and I haven't, I've been stoic. So this is surprising and significant, I'm not one of those "I'm in touch with my feminine side" dudes that cry often listening to 80's love ballads. After about an hour of hanging out with my brother and telling him about it, and relaxing with him, talking about it and a lot of other unrelated stuff to get my mind off it, I calmed down and felt better and more at peace about the eventuality. Big turnaround in the span of an hour. I wasn't doing anything other than DMSI V2.5, so nothing else could've caused such an instance. It doesn't have clearing modules, but something happened there, not sure what exactly. That was 6 days ago, I've also ballooned up 7 pounds out of nowhere despite rigorous diet control and intermittent fasting, around the same time, and it's taken me days of effort to get back down under what I was before, now all is well. So the two instances may have been connected.

Maybe I should continue with V2.5, even though I have somewhat limited options for girls to "use" it on now. It seems it can still do some form of healing despite the modules not being there? I'd like to journal about it all, but I'm tired of the insults and nonsense when I speak of my experience to be honest. It's obvious I'm not going to have a lights out journal as I'm a hard gainer, so it will pale to most other's experiences, people seem to forget that.

Anyway, I can't wait to see V3.0-A or whatever it ends up being called, lol! I read the list you posted of what you are looking at including everyday, I'm very excited, it should be a big step forward.

3.0 A will have clearing enabled. 3.0 B will not. Logistics will be dealt with.

I see you waiting for DMSI to do something before you act. That's fear using an excuse to act. Just because DMSI is designed to get her to approach doesn't mean you should be a jellyfish and let opportunity pass you by... that's what women do.

Until we get this baby doing more for you, be assertive when you want something. Take charge. CHAAAAAARRRGGGGGEEEE!!!!!!

And 2.5 has no clearing enabled but it's approaching power levels that can plow through resistance and appear to have similar effect. I can't say you should or should not do 2.4. That's up to you. But remember that no man is a jellyfish. No successful man, anyway.