08-31-2011, 01:36 PM
(08-30-2011, 06:57 PM)Adam Wrote: I am switching over to Happiness and Joy 4G tonight. I am going to run through it for at least a month. I don't feel I deserve to be happy. It has been eating away at me all day. I actually enjoy being depressed. This is pulling me down. I never show my true feelings in public, I hate negative attention. It makes me feel even more out of sort. I laugh every day, and people enjoy my company, but afterwards I feel terrible. I desperately want to tell somebody, but the attention is not worth it. And shrinks are the worst. I need to get out of this hole before I lose myself in it.
I feel guilty about what I did in my past and what I didn't do. There is more, but I'll keep it at that.
Guilt is a terrible thing Adam. It can consume your whole being. How about listening to the sub Forgive Yourself and Move On along with the Happiness sub? It may help some.
If you're searching for that one person that will change your life, take a look in the mirror!
