08-30-2011, 06:57 PM
I am switching over to Happiness and Joy 4G tonight. I am going to run through it for at least a month. I don't feel I deserve to be happy. It has been eating away at me all day. I actually enjoy being depressed. This is pulling me down. I never show my true feelings in public, I hate negative attention. It makes me feel even more out of sort. I laugh every day, and people enjoy my company, but afterwards I feel terrible. I desperately want to tell somebody, but the attention is not worth it. And shrinks are the worst. I need to get out of this hole before I lose myself in it.
I feel guilty about what I did in my past and what I didn't do. There is more, but I'll keep it at that.
I feel guilty about what I did in my past and what I didn't do. There is more, but I'll keep it at that.
In the end, it's not going to matter how many breaths you took, but how many moments took your breath away.
-Shing Xiong
-Shing Xiong
