DMSI, will you be the final piece of puzzle?

[DisneylandUSA]

I suppose I've been off DMSI a bit more than 2 weeks as Shannon thought useful. I suppose it is hard to tell if I am noticing any differences between when I was on DMSI (or 2.3~2.4), and when I have been off for over 2 weeks. Perhaps I will see more if I am fully off DMSI.

Anyway, here is something I noticed.

1. I am not disgusted by people any more. --> Well, I've had experiences of being seriously disappointed in people in general (but not at the level of disgust), and eventually accept that that's what people are and how they are. Became not so much of a disappointment, but rather acceptance and not caring. So this point is a bit tough to say that it is a result from DMSI disconnection.

2. I think it is a continuation from before, but I am now starting to question about my next moves after the master program, what to do next, where to go and etc. Also I have recently started questioning about my abilities, where I fit, what I am good at, what I should do, where I can be use, and etc...... Perhaps 1. was a part of this process. Anyway, is this the result of DMSI, and/or the result of disconnection? Although more explicit version of this thought/self reflection came near the 2 week of disconnection, it also seems that these have been developing for a while. I don't know since when, but I think it may have been developing for about a month or a little longer. Also, I have done these several times to think that this may be a cycle for me. Hence, it may be just me, not necessarily DMSI.

Sooooo what should I do, or what am I going to do? Am I going to change to DMSI 2.5, or am I going to continue observing the difference between no sub and disconnection? I suppose I will first try waiting Shannon, but since he's on a break, I don't know if I will hear back from him soon.

I haven't decided on my next move, but I know that I won't be listening to DMSI 2.5 tonight. It's too late, I'm tired from class and school work/quizzes, and I have another class to attend tomorrow.

You know yourself: You know yourself better than anyone. Taking classes and tests can contribute to 'higher standards' in women in general. Instead of looking for an A+ woman perhaps, you can lower your standards to an A- woman.