Day 3
Realized a few things.
I'm feeling worse. I felt much better during 2.4. Maybe it's the healing module? Who knows, but my inner state feels worse with 2.5. Before i started 2.4 version i had a slight break down (couldn't calm myself down, anything slightly emotional would cause me to tear up). There is a slight resurfacing of that feeling. I'm usually perfectly stable, so that was something of a new experience to me, lol. It was a fun experience and i'm glad it happened actually.
I noticed a feeling of heat around my cheeks and face when i talked to a girl i found attractive. Possibly the sexual aura.
Other than that, i didn't notice any unusual heat.
The self confidence was definitely higher with 2.4. I've also noticed that i could keep up with lessons at the university much more easily with 2.4. I wasn't bored that easily. Possibly just the change of professors. I'll report more on this.
As for IOI's, i didn't notice much. Of course, i still make girls giggle with some slight jokes (girls i don't know, i just turn around in class and drop them a quick funny comment, they giggle). There is a definitive change in the air though. I feel as if they have a slight attraction. I don't know how to explain it. It's like the air, the energy currents - are a little more charged, the talking a little more playful.
I think one guy has a crush on me. Constantly wants to buy me snacks, constantly talks just to me, helped me out carrying a truckload of groceries today (lol).. Either he's gay, or he respects me massively. Why aren't girls doing this?!
I've had a small hypothesis show up in my mind today while taking a cold shower - what if cold showers positively impact the sexual aura? I've read a lot about spirituality, and i remember a practice called Ishnaan - cold shower therapy. I'm positively sure it stirs up the Kundalini (sexual energy), so this could have an empowering effect on the sexual aura, similar to edging (as one guy wrote in his journal). Tell me your opinions on this.
Quick edit - i forgot to mention that i got the desire to play games more, and work less. The motivation for working and studying has died off a little, while it was stronger on 2.4. Kinda feels like there is no point (not completely there, but there is this faint feeling of that.. it's probably resistance, and it's probably gonna get stronger). We'll see what happens tomorrow.
Realized a few things.
I'm feeling worse. I felt much better during 2.4. Maybe it's the healing module? Who knows, but my inner state feels worse with 2.5. Before i started 2.4 version i had a slight break down (couldn't calm myself down, anything slightly emotional would cause me to tear up). There is a slight resurfacing of that feeling. I'm usually perfectly stable, so that was something of a new experience to me, lol. It was a fun experience and i'm glad it happened actually.
I noticed a feeling of heat around my cheeks and face when i talked to a girl i found attractive. Possibly the sexual aura.
Other than that, i didn't notice any unusual heat.
The self confidence was definitely higher with 2.4. I've also noticed that i could keep up with lessons at the university much more easily with 2.4. I wasn't bored that easily. Possibly just the change of professors. I'll report more on this.
As for IOI's, i didn't notice much. Of course, i still make girls giggle with some slight jokes (girls i don't know, i just turn around in class and drop them a quick funny comment, they giggle). There is a definitive change in the air though. I feel as if they have a slight attraction. I don't know how to explain it. It's like the air, the energy currents - are a little more charged, the talking a little more playful.
I think one guy has a crush on me. Constantly wants to buy me snacks, constantly talks just to me, helped me out carrying a truckload of groceries today (lol).. Either he's gay, or he respects me massively. Why aren't girls doing this?!
I've had a small hypothesis show up in my mind today while taking a cold shower - what if cold showers positively impact the sexual aura? I've read a lot about spirituality, and i remember a practice called Ishnaan - cold shower therapy. I'm positively sure it stirs up the Kundalini (sexual energy), so this could have an empowering effect on the sexual aura, similar to edging (as one guy wrote in his journal). Tell me your opinions on this.
Quick edit - i forgot to mention that i got the desire to play games more, and work less. The motivation for working and studying has died off a little, while it was stronger on 2.4. Kinda feels like there is no point (not completely there, but there is this faint feeling of that.. it's probably resistance, and it's probably gonna get stronger). We'll see what happens tomorrow.
