(10-11-2016, 04:10 PM)Benjamin Wrote:(10-10-2016, 06:47 PM)Shannon Wrote:(10-10-2016, 04:04 PM)Benjamin Wrote: Shannon, i'm wondering your thoughts on this as it's a little strange.
I decided to try the whole 'listen during the day, take the night off' as it seemed to be good when I did it earlier in E2.
And today after having last night off i've woken up extremely fatigued and tired more than in a while, and my thoughts seem slower as some people have reported on E2 but I haven't noticed so much until today.
And some insecurities that just seemed to go away yesterday after being around for a week or so come back strong today. I don't know if it's that they have been given room for more to come up, or that I needed the extra listening to keep dealing with what hadn't been dealt with completely yet.
Sounds to me like you may be experiencing more benefit from using it at night.
The verdict is still out for me on this.
Last night I woke up feeling incredibly vulnerable and weak, which also happened the first night. And a ton more insecurity around girls where I was starting to feel more deserving, though that girl ending it may have something to do with that coming up too.
And I woke up feeling worse, but then I started to feel a little more alive again like I mentioned yesterday. Also strangely a little more motivation the last few days, just slightly but I noticed it. And a bit more of an edge coming up like asshole/assertive/anger type feeling.
Where before most things just seemed numb. Now it feels like more emotions are coming up. But also a little motivation and that more Alpha type feeling just a little.
I guess i'll try it for a week or so and see.
I don't know if it's leaving more 'space' to allow these deeper emotions to come up that weren't before which is a positive in the long run though it doesn't feel like it in the moment or that the less listening means it isn't working as well so i'm noticing these more.
Quote:Consider your circumstances
I thought about it and didn't come up with much. But later in the day I had a realization. I guess at this point i'm posting it as it's an experiment i'm doing to see how it goes and you may be curious about the results.. as none of the things I described in the end were happening before just changing to day listening.
From my journal. Cut a few unrelated parts out.
Quote:I'm now having different thoughts about my listening only during the day.
My mood, confidence etc is lower than it has been for ages the last few days, especially today.
Despite my confidence and mood being low, and these feelings of being really 'weak' at night something is happening if I look at the 'results' level instead of 'how I might feel today'.
First is I mentioned wanting to improve my eating. Today I managed to have no kabana and no protein bar. Every day i've been eating both for months, especially kabana i've been eating more every day. So that's awesome. The first time I just did days before DMSI 2.0 this started to happen. Since then it's been a 'nice thought' but I haven't been able to do anything and doing just the day again seemed to leave space for this to happen where it wasn't before.
Also I decided to try some more things for a health issue i've had for ages, it's come up a few times during E2 to deal with it and tonight I researched and ordered some things. My thought is that this health issue definately stands in the way of my happiness so E2 is wanting to deal with it. A few times i've got to the point of just wanting to give up and not bother since not alot has helped it.
And last night I applied for a couple of gym jobs.
Plus i'm noticing i'm more focused. Which I also noticed briefly when I first started E2 but then it hasn't come back until now.
This is after having zero motivation for almost anything like this for ages. So instead of looking at it emotionally, if I look at it logically.. the actions i've started taking show a better result even if my mood and confidence has been horrible.
