Shannon's Journal Discussion

[Shannon]

Shannon, knowing what you know about how your programs work, if you were in my shoes would you stick with E2 even longer or go to DMSI?

I know it's my decision in the end and I'll be thinking about it over the next few days, but I value your recommendations.

I don't have enough information to even offer an opinion.

I only have a few major emotional issues right now:
1. Stress/Anger about my workload of classes (which was my fault, didn't know)
2. Stress/Anger about the people I'm living with (again, my fault, didn't know until it was too late, but working on it)
3. My personality shutting down in specific circumstances (like a dance class where I take longer to learn moves because my mind is slower on E2)
4. My very high sex drive and no way to really satisfy it (sexual thoughts towards attractive girls)

E2 slows down my thinking and processing abilities. Meaning I take longer to do my work and learn than I normally would. This has slowed me down and stifled projects that I've been working on.

I have less GSF now and will get semi-hard ons when I see a girl that turns me on. I feel like E2 has helped with general things. But it has done little for setting me free in those specific circumstances where my personality shuts down.

If DMSI's healing is that much more effective than E2, then I think it would target some of my issues more specifically. E2 just feels like an endless rabbit hole. If DMSI enhances social capabilities and can help me satisfy my sex drive that'd be great.

based on that, take a week off E2 and then do whichever DMSI version most interests you. If you do 2.4, do it for at least a month for healing purposes.