Shannon's Journal Discussion

[Shannon]

Shannon I feel like AM6 is more like the old alpha who has already achieved everything he wants. It's like AM is more about developing me than getting external results. I'm usually never the badass with all the attention. It's cool and all to be like this, because in the end the internal development is the most important but it kinda sucks that I don't get to have fun too :/. I don't get crazy reactions or attention from people it's like I am an invisible alpha only women can tell it seems and even then they give me interest but often because being the center of attention on AM6 is impossible they don't give me any overt attention (for me, it's like I don't want to talk I just want to be alone). I say that because it's like I'm the most alpha but at the same time it's like my alphaness is more like I'm an "individual alpha" like "oh look that guy is a rock, but he's not imposing himself on us so let's ignore him" lol not even that because they would have to recognize me in the first place.

I think I will start using mones to get more overt reactions from people/women and become more externally alpha. Maybe it's external validation seeking but I'd like to see some things and have some experiences before I "grow up" so to say because it's like AM6 is making me too mature when I haven't even achieved the things I am giving up. Like women, I'm like "nah not worth the effort" even though I don't have much experience with them so it can kinda feel fake sometimes like it's not backed up and I'm just making excuses for not pursuing. Again I feel pressure to chase women like I'm supposed to "take action" because of the pua stuff I read and also from guys on here on the forum but at the same time I don't want to but then I feel the judgement imagining their disapproval.

Btw please add destruction of dissapproval in AM7 because it is a real problem for me Shannon, thank you. Oh and please add destruction of over sensitivity so it is harder to get offended/insulted/provoked.

You're not getting it. AM6 is ALL about self development, internal development, self mastery. Women, sex, pussy is a distraction. It's designed to get you to focus internally, not on getting attention and not on getting sex. You're only putting that stuff on pause while you develop yourself. If you're worried about getting attention, and seeking validation from others... you either need to use AM6 more (perhaps Stage 7), or go do something else when you're done with this run, because those are NOT alpha behaviors. Alpha doesn't need to be the center of attention. Alpha doesn't need validation from others. And alpha isn't desperate for sex.

Explain your addition requests further, please.