10-03-2016, 08:55 PM
(10-03-2016, 07:03 PM)Shannon Wrote: It sounds as if perhaps you are responding by withdrawing from opportunities to make the subliminal succeed, and thereby effectively hiding from those things. Why would that be your response?
I don't know if I am necessarily withdrawing from opportunities more than before. Finding social opportunities that I can enjoy, and I can consistently go with right demographics has always been a great struggle for me probably due to ASD and other stuff. And if you are referring this as my withdrawing from opportunities, I don't think I am withdrawing, but rather, I have not been able to work on that issue to get myself more opportunities, and the sub has not succeed in doing it yet.
It's like once school starts, or once I am in the school that is the sole focus that I can and only do that. And once I am done with that, I am too exhausted (as I need to spend much more time than others in reading, and doing stuff, for unknown reasons. (In 2008 when I tested, I remember that my reading speed was 1% from the bottom. Probably improved much since, but still at best I would be average, and grad school reading requires more than average speed to have other stuff going.)). Doing school work at the public venue like library don't work as I get too distracted. (ADD related stuff) So in a certain sense, I suppose I am trapped.
If you are referring to my becoming less interested in others and becoming more detached, disappointed in them, and even disgusted to certain extent, then I suppose you may say I am withdrawing, but I am not doing this voluntarily. It's just what is happening, and I decided to write what I observed about myself.
I don't know if I clarified or clogged myself more.
