Joining that EPRHA 2.0 Bandwagon

[Why So Serious?]

I'm still trying to find a balance. I'm starting to think that drawing and computer science aren't really that different. Not these completely separate entities. Your trying to solve problems in both just a different set of problems. At least that's my weird logic.
I'm studying Computer Science.

I really hate being empathetic. I've just realized that I'm absorbing this coworkers stress and negativity. I got to learn how to break away from that.

My mind works like that too. Always finding similarities between things no matter how different. I think it's because there are a lot of universal concepts that can be applied to anything. I think that's good for computer science too because a lot of programming is how interconnected everything is. You'll be able to notice patterns easily.

I used to have the same problem with empathy. It really is a gift when you use it to understand and help people that are close to you. But when you don't set boundaries it gets really chaotic. Luckily since running E2 I've gained the ability to sort of shut it off when I'm around people. So I think E2 will take care of that for you also.

Actually it works the opposite for me. Computer Science helps me out in art. It helps to focus and think logically in art.

Yeah I do need more boundaries. The person I work with is currently testing them.

So Saturday my nephews came over and we had a good time. I was surprised they wanted to play FFXIII. Didn't think it would interest them. (Actually I was hoping it wouldn't so could play by myself while they play something else.) It still turned out to fun either way, and I got to bond with them.

I hung out with my sister for a moment. It was her dogs birthday so I decided to take him to the Kraiser's to get some treats. I didn't think my sister cared that much for the dog. *shrugs shoulders* I mean I didn't but hey. I will be treating her to lunch or dinner this Saturday.


Now Sunday I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I was mad because I couldn't any. Wasn't the right moment, couldn't invite anyone over, etc.
The kids spent the night and wanted to play the game and of course I took that frustration out on them. Everything they did I was raising my voice at them. Now something that surprised me was I apologized to them later on that day. They accepted it and gave me hug. I explained that I was in bad mood and they needed to give me some space.

Now back to the couldn't get any statement. I was pondering why I was feeling that frustrated. It's usually not that bad. Annoying yes. Then later on that evening I felt like it scraped the surface of a bigger issue going on. It is very painful emotionally. It's to the point I where don't want to deal with it at all. I cried a little. I just wanted whatever it was bring up to stop. And eventually it stopped because I started pouring all of my focus into finishing my homework.

It still bothers me because I don't know what's going on with that area of my life. I don't have any bad memories or experiences that I know of. Whatever it is I would rather avoid it for the time being. I'm just distracting myself with other things to do.