Mystic Pymp on DMSI 2.4→2.5→3.0.1A→3.1A/B→3.2A/B→3.3D→3.3.1D

[Shannon]

Two things on my mind. First of all the date didn't happen, her grandpa died and she had to go to the funeral. Ok, it happens, it wasn't the first time when we had issues with aligning our time. What was very interesting for me is that she send me a photo of the death certificate as if she wanted to make sure I wasn't thinking she was bailing on me. Can't recall anything similar happening to me in the past that someone wanted to prove me there is a reason they can't make it.

I have never even HEARD of anyone, male or female, ever doing that. I mean I get it what she's trying HARD to communicate... but how would she get her hands on it to photograph? Does it look real?

Secondly yesterday I was at my female friend's to catch up and watch some movies. Our relationship is a story for another day, in short she's giving me lots of IOIs for some time now but I'm keeping her in friendzone. We ended up watching "V for Vendetta" (awesome movie, go watch it if you didn't!!) and after the movie she said something very interesting. "Even without a face a man can be sexy". That made me thinking later on. It is known that a man needs to have a mission to be attractive to women and I acknowledge that, but V is really a perfect example of the principle and he made me realize how important it is. How man with unwavering mission can have incredible presence. I still have a lot of work to do on that front.

A man without a face can be especially sexy because he uses something I found extremely effective that I use in my fiction writing, which is... don't describe the scene in too much detail. Leave some of it for the reader to create in their imaginations. Plus, women frequently like to idealize and romanticize things, and that's a way for her to do it...

Finally, a man who is daring against great odds and doing so for the good of those in need is always going to win the hearts and minds of many women because he represents the protector and savior.

I still have some anxieties, not sure if the sub is multiplying them or not but day off didn't help much so I'd assume is has little to do with the underlying problem. I've started listening to the sub during the sleep and I must admit I sleep well with it, have some crazy dreams but nothing out of ordinary and little to nothing about sex. I'm not sure if I'll continue to do that, sleep might be better for a rest than for a listening, but it's more consistent and I don't have to think about squeezing into my other activities.

if a day off didn't help, you're dealing with them.