10-02-2016, 03:19 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-02-2016, 03:27 AM by JackOfHearts.)
Stage Rest Day 27:
If there is one thing obvious from this SM3 run for me, that would be how hard it is for me to not say what I think about something. It is currently hard for me not to react and say my opinion when to me something seems seriously wrong. And it's always either seriously wrong or seriously good, there is no middle ground right now.
The argument I had with people on the forum reflect that, I just can't prevent myself from doing it. I just look at the post, I go away, I try to think about something else but then I come back, trying to forget it but it stays there in my mind.
When I see something like "dzeemo may have outgrow the community" I can't help myself. I'm thinking " how can someone come up with such an idea?
It seems so obvious to me
and I'm hugely censoring what I really think here.
Well not only on the forum this happened, every time I'm with someone who say something that seems obvious to me. I can't help myself to just tell him straightly how wrong his ideas is to me.
For example when my father is watching TV and I see some propaganda, it doesn't end well usually. The only thing I can do is run away because I can't just stay and listen to such non sense.
It also happens times when I'm wrong (yeah it happens who would believe that
). Last time I went out with my friend who is usually the guy who have very little control about what he doesn't like. So we were at the supermarket and there was some green grapes just in front of us.
I was thinking that the grapes there were horrible as they looked horrible to me. So I was watching outrageously at the girls around with a big grin and an attitude that would certainly be called "assholes" by most. Even grinning at the husband who caught me looking at his wife, I didn't care at all.
So back to the story my friend ate a grape and asked me what do you think about the grapes. I told him straight they are horrible, without even tasting I could tell
.
Then he asked me to taste and me thinking they are certainly horrible was really surprised that the grape was very good. So I end up buying some.
This is seriously wrong
I used to be the guy who would criticized that kind of behavior. I'm not going to avoid that I like it
How would a 2nd run affect me? Shannon's products for sure does make a difference. For the best or the worst I don't know but it's undeniable that it does make a difference.
If there is one thing obvious from this SM3 run for me, that would be how hard it is for me to not say what I think about something. It is currently hard for me not to react and say my opinion when to me something seems seriously wrong. And it's always either seriously wrong or seriously good, there is no middle ground right now.
The argument I had with people on the forum reflect that, I just can't prevent myself from doing it. I just look at the post, I go away, I try to think about something else but then I come back, trying to forget it but it stays there in my mind.
When I see something like "dzeemo may have outgrow the community" I can't help myself. I'm thinking " how can someone come up with such an idea?
It seems so obvious to me
and I'm hugely censoring what I really think here. Well not only on the forum this happened, every time I'm with someone who say something that seems obvious to me. I can't help myself to just tell him straightly how wrong his ideas is to me.
For example when my father is watching TV and I see some propaganda, it doesn't end well usually. The only thing I can do is run away because I can't just stay and listen to such non sense.
It also happens times when I'm wrong (yeah it happens who would believe that
). Last time I went out with my friend who is usually the guy who have very little control about what he doesn't like. So we were at the supermarket and there was some green grapes just in front of us. I was thinking that the grapes there were horrible as they looked horrible to me. So I was watching outrageously at the girls around with a big grin and an attitude that would certainly be called "assholes" by most. Even grinning at the husband who caught me looking at his wife, I didn't care at all.
So back to the story my friend ate a grape and asked me what do you think about the grapes. I told him straight they are horrible, without even tasting I could tell
.Then he asked me to taste and me thinking they are certainly horrible was really surprised that the grape was very good. So I end up buying some.
This is seriously wrong
I used to be the guy who would criticized that kind of behavior. I'm not going to avoid that I like it How would a 2nd run affect me? Shannon's products for sure does make a difference. For the best or the worst I don't know but it's undeniable that it does make a difference.
