EHPRA V2: CatMan's Brother

[CatMan]

I don't mean to interfere in your relationship with your brother but don't you think you're being controlling despite your interest in helping him?

No one can force anyone to do anything. I haven't been successful convincing any friends or family to run anything, not even the free programs.

My brother knows about my sub use. He's the only one in the family to, my parents either wouldn't understand, or refute it, or freak out and be worried I was frying my brain, probably the third in my Mother's case. Anyway, he's seen the highs and lows in my journey. He wanted to try them, so I hooked him up with OF5G for 180 days, hoping to clear his panic attacks. Ran that, now I hooked him up with E2 long term, to see what that will unearth. Hopefully E2 will get rid of them forever, as well as the typical E2 goodness along the way.

I've been supportive beyond belief with him throughout my life and helping him with his very serious issues often. I think FFaux read deep into something, maybe, that's all. No harm done.

It seems from the way you wrote about the situation that you're making a lot of the choices and decisions around what he runs and how long. I feel like maybe these are choices he should be making himself, particularly with E2 where you're not meant to be listening to it continuously but listen to your subconscious when it tells you to take a break. All of this together gave me the impression that you're being controlling with your brother in the interest of helping him. It sounds like he looks up to you, does he defer other decisions to you as well? If so, "helping" him might actually undermine his self-efficiacy and therein undermine his growth. But I might have misunderstood the situation and if that's the case I apologise.

He came to me because I have ran subs for a long time and he wanted to run them. So I'm guiding him, and know his issues and what he needs.

He IS choosing himself to run OF5G, and now E2...I don't have a gun to his head. He isn't listening to E2 continuously, I said 12-14 hours per day.

He does look up to me, he has psychiatric problems. But that doesn't mean I'm forcing him to listen to a sub, or being "controlling". In his case, him having full autonomy is impossible, and very dangerous. For now, getting rid of panic attacks and resolving old traumas would be panacea. We'll see if it can be done in time.