Day 18 (174h 52m)↑
I messed up yesterday. I got so horny I gave up my 8-day streak of nofap. It wasn't easy. The longest I've had is 14 days and I haven't beaten it yet.
I was so horny, I had problems in the business, and I was drifting through the day in a purposeless way. Eventually, at midnight, I downloaded porn and a few hours later, it happened. I masturbated to orgasm.
As I have always observed, whenever I relapse, I tend to mess up in other areas as well. So I missed my diet, logging my time, tracking my habits, and so on.
I don't regret it though. I'd take it as EPRHA's way for me to explore my inner sexuality which is a huge part of who I am now and the root of my present social and emotional issues.
I know I could get back on track. I've seen some solutions to my business problems today. I'm also considering to go back to the gym and make it a habit again, for that's one of my MITs for the year too. To do that, however, I have to reprogram my sleeping habits such that I'd make myself more active during the day again and reserve the night for resting. (Lately, I intentionally made the nights my kind of daytime because it's so hot here during the day.)
To make myself more comfortable doing activities during the day, I have to make it a habit as well to take a bath every morning, and always wear good clothing.
I messed up yesterday. I got so horny I gave up my 8-day streak of nofap. It wasn't easy. The longest I've had is 14 days and I haven't beaten it yet.
I was so horny, I had problems in the business, and I was drifting through the day in a purposeless way. Eventually, at midnight, I downloaded porn and a few hours later, it happened. I masturbated to orgasm.
As I have always observed, whenever I relapse, I tend to mess up in other areas as well. So I missed my diet, logging my time, tracking my habits, and so on.
I don't regret it though. I'd take it as EPRHA's way for me to explore my inner sexuality which is a huge part of who I am now and the root of my present social and emotional issues.
I know I could get back on track. I've seen some solutions to my business problems today. I'm also considering to go back to the gym and make it a habit again, for that's one of my MITs for the year too. To do that, however, I have to reprogram my sleeping habits such that I'd make myself more active during the day again and reserve the night for resting. (Lately, I intentionally made the nights my kind of daytime because it's so hot here during the day.)
To make myself more comfortable doing activities during the day, I have to make it a habit as well to take a bath every morning, and always wear good clothing.
"I am developing into a high value Alpha Male..."
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