09-28-2016, 04:36 PM
@ Maxx55
Yeah I get what your saying. I just do masked most of the time now. I'll play ultrasonic on my phone speaker when at work. I figure since it's mono it shouldn't be as bad.
@mat422
I'm still trying to find a balance. I'm starting to think that drawing and computer science aren't really that different. Not these completely separate entities. Your trying to solve problems in both just a different set of problems. At least that's my weird logic.
I'm studying Computer Science.
I really hate being empathetic. I've just realized that I'm absorbing this coworkers stress and negativity. I got to learn how to break away from that.
I'm starting to feel more confident lately. Crowds of people don't scare me anymore.
I just realized that I can't keep putting my sexuality on the back burner anymore. That was actually a big reason why I was depressed(who knew). That surprised me cause I could have sworn it was something else. You know abandonment issues, anxiety issues, self validation issues, etc. I mean when I started fantasizing I became friendlier. I even started focusing in class. Sure I would get a little to deep into fantasizing but I could concentrate most of the class. Which is strange because logically it should be the opposite. I'm now confused because I thought putting that the back burner thinking it would help.
BUT hey I'm happy for a moment. Still though WTF
I still have a lot fear, and shame around sex, sexuality in general and I'll leave it at that. No need to get into details.
Yeah I get what your saying. I just do masked most of the time now. I'll play ultrasonic on my phone speaker when at work. I figure since it's mono it shouldn't be as bad.
@mat422
I'm still trying to find a balance. I'm starting to think that drawing and computer science aren't really that different. Not these completely separate entities. Your trying to solve problems in both just a different set of problems. At least that's my weird logic.
I'm studying Computer Science.
I really hate being empathetic. I've just realized that I'm absorbing this coworkers stress and negativity. I got to learn how to break away from that.
I'm starting to feel more confident lately. Crowds of people don't scare me anymore.
I just realized that I can't keep putting my sexuality on the back burner anymore. That was actually a big reason why I was depressed(who knew). That surprised me cause I could have sworn it was something else. You know abandonment issues, anxiety issues, self validation issues, etc. I mean when I started fantasizing I became friendlier. I even started focusing in class. Sure I would get a little to deep into fantasizing but I could concentrate most of the class. Which is strange because logically it should be the opposite. I'm now confused because I thought putting that the back burner thinking it would help.
BUT hey I'm happy for a moment. Still though WTF
I still have a lot fear, and shame around sex, sexuality in general and I'll leave it at that. No need to get into details.
