09-28-2016, 08:47 AM
Day 24
The last few days it seems like the universe is out to get me. Everything is going wrong or getting on my nerves. Combine a few minor health ailments (3-4 different at once), a business hold up, 99% of friends living in other cities or have cut ties, girlfriend being away, having to make changes to my program for the next 1-1,5 years and you have a furious and miserable me. I had to go out today and walk it off. Something tells me that all these might be just ways to rationalize my current emotions, or maybe not.
I am thinking that by not having many friends and not going out a lot in this city I might turn C. off and lose her. It is worrying me. It dawned to me that my value as a man is not directly correlated to the amount of friends I currently have in this city. Friends come and go all the time. There is no denying I want more friends and I would have more if fun and be happier if I hang out with more people. I hope DMSI pushes me to socialize with men.
I find it hard to channel my emotional turmoil to anything productive.
I am getting an urge to run AM6, which was my plan to begin with, but then DMSI came along. But I am smarter than to fall for that.
I hope everything goes back to normal the following days.
The last few days it seems like the universe is out to get me. Everything is going wrong or getting on my nerves. Combine a few minor health ailments (3-4 different at once), a business hold up, 99% of friends living in other cities or have cut ties, girlfriend being away, having to make changes to my program for the next 1-1,5 years and you have a furious and miserable me. I had to go out today and walk it off. Something tells me that all these might be just ways to rationalize my current emotions, or maybe not.
I am thinking that by not having many friends and not going out a lot in this city I might turn C. off and lose her. It is worrying me. It dawned to me that my value as a man is not directly correlated to the amount of friends I currently have in this city. Friends come and go all the time. There is no denying I want more friends and I would have more if fun and be happier if I hang out with more people. I hope DMSI pushes me to socialize with men.
I find it hard to channel my emotional turmoil to anything productive.
I am getting an urge to run AM6, which was my plan to begin with, but then DMSI came along. But I am smarter than to fall for that.
I hope everything goes back to normal the following days.
