Day 22
My feelings are a shitstorm today. I woke up feeling well but when I found out my internship will probably coincide with my scheduled trip to Germany it all went to shit. It ruined some plans I had made for the next months. It all went downhill from there. I started worrying about some minor health annoyances and then about not having enough friends in this city and being a bit of a loner the last months. I am spending another year here so this must be fixed.
My melancholy and nostalgia are still strong.
I wonder if these feelings are somehow related to DMSI.
On Saturday I consumed a large dosage of marijuana, and I felt like it revealed an underlying sadness and depression of mine. I don't know if it was true or if it just made me feel this way. Today, for the first time in months, I got a strong urge to go back to EPRHA 2.0 or run AM6. I hope this confirms my feelings today are just a part of resistance.
My feelings are a shitstorm today. I woke up feeling well but when I found out my internship will probably coincide with my scheduled trip to Germany it all went to shit. It ruined some plans I had made for the next months. It all went downhill from there. I started worrying about some minor health annoyances and then about not having enough friends in this city and being a bit of a loner the last months. I am spending another year here so this must be fixed.
My melancholy and nostalgia are still strong.
I wonder if these feelings are somehow related to DMSI.
On Saturday I consumed a large dosage of marijuana, and I felt like it revealed an underlying sadness and depression of mine. I don't know if it was true or if it just made me feel this way. Today, for the first time in months, I got a strong urge to go back to EPRHA 2.0 or run AM6. I hope this confirms my feelings today are just a part of resistance.