09-23-2016, 02:21 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-23-2016, 02:24 PM by AlphaScorpio.)
Day 18
5 Loops masked back to back in bed
started college today had plenty of exposure to girls, not many good looking girls at college unfortunately;
-Past two days most girls have ghosted me
-feel some resistance
-Yesterday I felt more nervous than usual, today I have been less nervous but more frustrated, different resistances manifesting
-thoughts such as "how the fuck could I deal with a relationship again?" Fear fear fear
-No noticeable aura
-Very few IOIs
-One IOI, I saw this 8/10 blonde walking with a guy in the canteen area at college, I made eye contact with her and she just started at me, we locked gaze for about 2-3 seconds, she was sexy as fuck. Definitely an IOI that time to be fair. Seems I am sniping rather than generally attracting.
-Definately feel like I am repelling undesirable women.
Will try US on headphones tonight.
5 Loops masked back to back in bed
started college today had plenty of exposure to girls, not many good looking girls at college unfortunately;
-Past two days most girls have ghosted me
-feel some resistance
-Yesterday I felt more nervous than usual, today I have been less nervous but more frustrated, different resistances manifesting
-thoughts such as "how the fuck could I deal with a relationship again?" Fear fear fear
-No noticeable aura
-Very few IOIs
-One IOI, I saw this 8/10 blonde walking with a guy in the canteen area at college, I made eye contact with her and she just started at me, we locked gaze for about 2-3 seconds, she was sexy as fuck. Definitely an IOI that time to be fair. Seems I am sniping rather than generally attracting.
-Definately feel like I am repelling undesirable women.
Will try US on headphones tonight.
