Aventus's Side Quest of Life: DMSI 2.4

[Aventus45]

Day 9 (9/13/16)

Enormous resistance to update this journal. Perhaps it is the idea of my journal won't be as good compared to everyone else's.

Started hitting the gym again with a bodybuilding focus.
Started paying attention to looking better, especially after sick's post.

Started reading a eBook from mark manson, I feel warmth from my sacral chakra area and it introduced a minor shift in the way I see things and it put me in a better mood.

As I arrived to class, I felt really good and carefree so I started teasing this asian girl next to me. She started being more receptive to me but I wasn't all that interested in her.

Later that day I hung out with some of my female friends. A notable thing was one of my female friends usually eats like a full grown man, she still looks like a skinny curvy Asian girl, for some unknown reason, but this time she insisted that she wasn't hungry and insisted to share her food with me. She doesn't hate me now, despite all the shenanigans.
She hinted at a potential "massage" or a "foam rolling" session which we both foam roller each other. Lots of sexual tension when ur your staring at her ass the entire time.

Sounds pretty awesome to me. Slay some asian p*ssy and I don't think anyone's gonna think your journal isn't as good as the others.

I feel like the potential to escalate is inside me but I feel fear is blocking me. when I visualize the escalation, I feel this surge of animalistic emotion and energy that feels like a "trance". It's foreign to me and probably scares my subconscious.