Joining that EPRHA 2.0 Bandwagon

[Why So Serious?]

All I can say is be kind to yourself as much as possible. It's easy to overlook just how much work we are putting into ourselves because it's as easy as pressing play and listening to a subliminal. But a lot of that stuff going on in the background is a lot of work. Keep going, you'll break through eventually.

Let's see if that break through happens at the end of the month. I don't feel like it's doing much but maybe it is who knows.
I'm just starting to frustrated that this can't go any faster. It would be nice to have some motivation and all that jazz right about now.
I'm just tired of being depressed, stressed,extremely negative,lots of tension from stress all through out my body, and anxious for 2 1/2 months straight with only a glimmer of peace that lasts a few hours at best. And for some odd reason it only gets worse
I'll try to be more patient but this is starting to get old.

I know exactly what you're going through. I'm in the same boat. Just take a deep breath and tell yourself it's ok. Do what you can and don't beat yourself up if you can't do any more than you set out to do. That's hard if you have a constant habit of criticizing yourself, which is something I struggle with a lot. But if you can let go of that self criticism you'll notice you start feeling a lot better. At first your mind will resist and tell you that you don't deserve it, don't listen to it and just keep practicing compassion for yourself. Remember that any negativity, stress, or depression comes from your own mind, which means you also have the power to counter those feelings. You don't have to believe the awful thoughts you might be telling yourself.

I don't feel like I'm being that critical but my ya'll see something that I don't. Wouldn't be the first time this has happened. I will do my best to take it easy on myself. This sentence don't make sense to me for some odd reason. It's like reading it in some strange alien language. This is going to pretty hard.

Remember that any negativity, stress, or depression comes from your own mind, which means you also have the power to counter those feelings. You don't have to believe the awful thoughts you might be telling yourself.
This also isn't making that much sense. I get but I don't get it. Ugh the frustration of not getting this right away.

I think that's a good indication that you're unfamiliar with going easy on yourself. See, when a person is self critical all their life they don't realize when they are doing it because they have nothing to compare it to. A lot of people have a bad habit of motivating themselves through things like shame or guilt and all it does is break them down and make it harder to actually work on the things they need to improve.

That second part. You'll understand with time, don't pressure yourself to understand it right away. Just know that a lot of negativity or stress is due to bad habits and how we treat ourselves and eventually you'll break them and replace them with positive ones.

The bold part makes a lot sense. I can't quite put my finger on the bad habits I have formed but it still make sense.Thanks

The second part. I hope your right. It's nice to know that I don't have to rush to figure it out.


Today, I was bummed out because I had to go run an errand. When I was driving home I started to feel better. When I was home I started the usual criticizing but then it hit me. I really do need to take it easy. I'm not going to rush, and push myself to do a lot. That ends up a being disaster. I am behind as far as being social goes. I just dropped the friends I had and haven't tried to make any new ones in awhile but it will all get taken care of.

A part of me is still trying to push to do more that what I can handle at the moment even after I have made this decision. I trying to relax and understand that this is going to take some getting used to.

For now what I think might help is staying at home most of the time BUT this time I won't be so critical about it. I think some solitude without criticizing everything I do could help.

I feel like most of the weight that I have been packing around for the last couple of months is starting to lift off my shoulders. So I'm guessing that I'm doing something right.:angel:

This isn't going to be easy. But all I can do is my best right?