09-02-2016, 11:58 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-02-2016, 12:00 PM by JackOfHearts.)
Stage 6 day 28:
Reporting finally, I'm not really in the mood to do it but I'm doing it, I need to release some emotions
Since a week or 2 I think I began to act really out of the norm even more than the other stage and doing things I don't do usually. My nature seems to change from passive to really aggressive, acting, being the jerk almost.
Example:
I was out eating an ice cream with my brother and a close friend. A car was leaving his parking place, and I said something like "It's being a long time I didn't see a car accident, I miss it, it's been a long time I didn't see one, usually there is always a stupid one who can't drive at all". This is just one crazy example among many other that happen through out the day. Another one was when I was driving very aggressively, I think I would have fought with someone if one driver wouldn't have let me pass, I get angry very fast if someone do something stupid. I wasn't like that before. I did a lot of stuff out of the norm recently, I don't usually, pushing boundaries way more than usual.
I have to say the forum is killing me recently I can't stand it anymore
, I used to be patient and understanding. I still understand that people need to learn, etc and all that stuff but I don't have the patience to go through it anymore. I understand why some people go overboard after listening to SM3. If you have crazy thought in your head that you keep inside you won't be able to while doing SM3, most of the anger, the hatred you keep inside will flow outside. I do want to kick some people's ass literally from time to time not on the forum but in real life 
. From someone who has never being in a fight and has been avoiding it for all his life it's quiet a change.
Also while watching the news it's hard to no react to the bs I hear all the time; I do use a lot of not appropriate word much more than usual. Very aggressive attitude, my dad surely saw a big difference. I do notice my brother being surprised too, and he seems to like my new attitude unless I'm calling him out on something.
In the girl area I can't say much. I didn't go out much. The few times I went out I didn't noticed more attraction, I remember a girl being completely hypnotized by me just from looking at me. But not enough number to be sure about it. Anyway I didn't go out much. Also my friend girl in the ice cream shop was checking me out more than usual the last time I went there. But I don't know anything for sure and I haven't been looking for it as much. But to me it seems the attraction in stage 5 was more noticeable.
I spent some good time with my current GF, a lot of sex and good kissing moments.
But I think it's going to end. She is the only girl I dated which I have to say was too nice and too pleasing. Always asking me if it's ok, if I'm fine, if she did ok, if the blowjob was good, etc, she sent me text messages everyday for 3 months. She also told me that she is always wet when she is with me, I don't know if it's always true though I don't trust anything she says, she doesn't lie much but she doesn't always live in this reality.
I do like girls pleasing me but it was clear to me that she was doing it out of insecurity. So from that I expected that it would be a dead end at some point.
Sex wise I can't say I noticed I last longer, though since AM6 stage 5 I no longer feel much on my dick. I don't have much sensation anymore on my dick. I have to say it's quiet disappointing. It seems to help me last longer but I don't get as much pleasure as before. Whats the point of sex if you don't feel anything anymore. So to me the sex enhancing stuff in Sm3 suc**s. And it's quiet strange that I became numb from using AM6. So a bummer in that area. Though I have improved my sex skills a lot but what I got from SM3 I'm not sure.
The stage 6 feel a bit like the stage 1. I remember feeling on top of the world in the 1st stage, I think it was the best stage, with stage 2 maybe. I want to listen to SM3 again after this run. But I also want to test DMSI since I already bought it. Hard decision.
There were times I wanted to stop SM3 because I was thinking it was messing with my spiritual development. I'm no sure now.
There is also a lot of psychological development from SM3 that I didn't talk about because I'm not sure it's possible to talk about it. It's depressing sometimes because you are facing hard reality. One thing I have been thinking about is that no one actually care about you. We are faking love, friendship, to please our little ego. Deep inside we don't care if sometime dies or is hurt. We are insecure in our self so we get attached to friends, family, relationship. All that because we need it but not really because we love or we care. Sometimes I think there is love somewhere, that we are still able to do some good stuff. But since doing SM3 I'm going more in the direction that no one actually care. And I think it's the main reason SM3 is so hard and why a lot of people resist it and feel depressed. Though I don't think this run was hard for me, it was quiet easy to go through it, not always so but overall easy. My AM5 run was very hard compared to it.
So mixed stuff from SM3. Overall I would say it's a good sub. I don't think I got all from it in just one run. Like every 6 stage sub it's hard to say if the sub is really good or not because I would have to run it 3 times at least to be sure about it. I think I got around 40% from the product description. Maybe if I run it another time the results will go through the roof.
One thing to keep in mind though is that I didn't go out much during the stage 5 and 6. I wasn't really interested to go out clubbing for example mainly due to the weather condition and sometimes because I didn't think it was worth it.
Reporting finally, I'm not really in the mood to do it but I'm doing it, I need to release some emotions
Since a week or 2 I think I began to act really out of the norm even more than the other stage and doing things I don't do usually. My nature seems to change from passive to really aggressive, acting, being the jerk almost.
Example:
I was out eating an ice cream with my brother and a close friend. A car was leaving his parking place, and I said something like "It's being a long time I didn't see a car accident, I miss it, it's been a long time I didn't see one, usually there is always a stupid one who can't drive at all". This is just one crazy example among many other that happen through out the day. Another one was when I was driving very aggressively, I think I would have fought with someone if one driver wouldn't have let me pass, I get angry very fast if someone do something stupid. I wasn't like that before. I did a lot of stuff out of the norm recently, I don't usually, pushing boundaries way more than usual.
I have to say the forum is killing me recently I can't stand it anymore
, I used to be patient and understanding. I still understand that people need to learn, etc and all that stuff but I don't have the patience to go through it anymore. I understand why some people go overboard after listening to SM3. If you have crazy thought in your head that you keep inside you won't be able to while doing SM3, most of the anger, the hatred you keep inside will flow outside. I do want to kick some people's ass literally from time to time not on the forum but in real life . From someone who has never being in a fight and has been avoiding it for all his life it's quiet a change. Also while watching the news it's hard to no react to the bs I hear all the time; I do use a lot of not appropriate word much more than usual. Very aggressive attitude, my dad surely saw a big difference. I do notice my brother being surprised too, and he seems to like my new attitude unless I'm calling him out on something.
In the girl area I can't say much. I didn't go out much. The few times I went out I didn't noticed more attraction, I remember a girl being completely hypnotized by me just from looking at me. But not enough number to be sure about it. Anyway I didn't go out much. Also my friend girl in the ice cream shop was checking me out more than usual the last time I went there. But I don't know anything for sure and I haven't been looking for it as much. But to me it seems the attraction in stage 5 was more noticeable.
I spent some good time with my current GF, a lot of sex and good kissing moments.
But I think it's going to end. She is the only girl I dated which I have to say was too nice and too pleasing. Always asking me if it's ok, if I'm fine, if she did ok, if the blowjob was good, etc, she sent me text messages everyday for 3 months. She also told me that she is always wet when she is with me, I don't know if it's always true though I don't trust anything she says, she doesn't lie much but she doesn't always live in this reality.
I do like girls pleasing me but it was clear to me that she was doing it out of insecurity. So from that I expected that it would be a dead end at some point.
Sex wise I can't say I noticed I last longer, though since AM6 stage 5 I no longer feel much on my dick. I don't have much sensation anymore on my dick. I have to say it's quiet disappointing. It seems to help me last longer but I don't get as much pleasure as before. Whats the point of sex if you don't feel anything anymore. So to me the sex enhancing stuff in Sm3 suc**s. And it's quiet strange that I became numb from using AM6. So a bummer in that area. Though I have improved my sex skills a lot but what I got from SM3 I'm not sure.
The stage 6 feel a bit like the stage 1. I remember feeling on top of the world in the 1st stage, I think it was the best stage, with stage 2 maybe. I want to listen to SM3 again after this run. But I also want to test DMSI since I already bought it. Hard decision.
There were times I wanted to stop SM3 because I was thinking it was messing with my spiritual development. I'm no sure now.
There is also a lot of psychological development from SM3 that I didn't talk about because I'm not sure it's possible to talk about it. It's depressing sometimes because you are facing hard reality. One thing I have been thinking about is that no one actually care about you. We are faking love, friendship, to please our little ego. Deep inside we don't care if sometime dies or is hurt. We are insecure in our self so we get attached to friends, family, relationship. All that because we need it but not really because we love or we care. Sometimes I think there is love somewhere, that we are still able to do some good stuff. But since doing SM3 I'm going more in the direction that no one actually care. And I think it's the main reason SM3 is so hard and why a lot of people resist it and feel depressed. Though I don't think this run was hard for me, it was quiet easy to go through it, not always so but overall easy. My AM5 run was very hard compared to it.
So mixed stuff from SM3. Overall I would say it's a good sub. I don't think I got all from it in just one run. Like every 6 stage sub it's hard to say if the sub is really good or not because I would have to run it 3 times at least to be sure about it. I think I got around 40% from the product description. Maybe if I run it another time the results will go through the roof.
One thing to keep in mind though is that I didn't go out much during the stage 5 and 6. I wasn't really interested to go out clubbing for example mainly due to the weather condition and sometimes because I didn't think it was worth it.
