(08-31-2016, 09:31 PM)Shannon Wrote:(08-31-2016, 09:20 PM)SargeMaximus Wrote:(08-31-2016, 08:27 PM)Shannon Wrote:(08-31-2016, 07:53 PM)ffaux Wrote: How does the ego balancer work in AM6? I seem to crash every time I run AM6 after a bout of self/over-confidence. It's like I'm afraid of the repercussions of being confident.
It works by telling you to balance your ego with humility. Which, it would appear, you are interpreting differently than was intended. It was intended to be interpreted as being a constant effect, not a set of cycles between the two. I will make note of this for correction in the next version.
I've had this. I didn't know it was because of the sub, thought it was just my own issue to be honest.
It happens in sales a lot when I get on a roll I suddenly start to feel really bad for doing so well.
I also have it happen when things are going good for me and I suddenly decide to stop or keep myself from progress.
I thought it was fear like I said but what you explained Shannon is exactly what's been happening. Cycles.
Cycles of confidence, of (false) ego vs humility? Because they are very different things. Cycles of confidence happens as you ascend to a state of mastery, which is where your confidence stabilizes. The cycles of false ego (arrogance, etc.) vs humility is what happens when you are trying to balance the false ego and doing it binarily instead of steadily.
Theoretically, what might happen if you are afraid of being confident (or rather afraid of the consequences of being confident)? Is it possible that the ego balancer might kick in when it's inappropriate? Or could the fear alone be enough to undermine the confidence?
I realised through reflection that my self-confidence tanked right after peaking. It peaked when I decided one night last week that I wanted to spend time with my friends and didn't feel like having sex with the girl I've been seeing. It then tanked the next day when I suddenly became afraid that I was going to lose the girl over this decision.
I've noticed also that before this fear kicked in I was totally cool and indifferent to women because I didn't want anything from them (I was satisfied and didn't care about sex) but now after the fear has kicked in I'm looking for approval and have consequently gone back to my old pattern of wanting sex from women again.
Prior to tanking I also noticed myself being a little bit testy with my friends and saying things that are mean (thinking "why did I say that?" after saying it) and also being challenged by my friends.
What do you make of all of this Shannon?
