08-26-2016, 09:13 PM
So last night I did 7 loops of DMSI V2.3. It's only 2nd one (I accidentally did one round of 3 loops about 6~7 days ago.) so it may be too early to give my experiences, but I'm going to share it anyway. Here is what I sorta did.
1. Tiredness.
I woke up a bit earlier than usual, but I had about 7~8 hours of sleep, so it isn't that short of a sleep, but I nevertheless felt quite tired. Too tired to a point that I was going to go out to museum, but I couldn't. Ended up playing a bit of game instead at my home. (I was going to go to take a nap, but I couldn't do that either, so I just went to kill some time)
2. Irritability,
There were a few things that were irritable. One my apartment placed in a request for a screen that I never placed. I was irritated, which I would normally not have been. I called, and hoped that it would fix things, but the maintenance person came again. I was quite irritated, but nonetheless I treated him right, explained situation, and let him go. Well, there was this social event I went, and I needed to take Uber. First driver came relatively fast, but he was keep going away from my location, so I had to cancel it. Within that few minutes, it became prime time for 75% (Lyft became that way, and Uber's price got jacked up too.) I became quite irritated for this. I would have gotten irritated even under normal situation, but the level of irritability was much higher for this one. Another thing that was irritating was that there were about two Uber drivers waiting, and guess what, people never showed up! They jacked up the prime time! This got me very irritated.
3. A little increase in the level of my taste/standard, and more tolerance.
So there were many more girls than guys at this event. So there were like 3 guys (including me), and 6 girls. Something I noticed is that I noticed my standard went up by 5%. Say some of the girls that I felt were attractive were slightly less attractive than how I thought/felt last time. On the other hand, what was interesting was that the ones I thought were not rather unattractive, felt slightly more attractive today. So the top margin went up, but my tolerance for low level seems to have expanded as well. Interesting. Nevertheless, I still treated them the same.
4. Talking more about things related to sex.
So this happened with the Uber driver who took me to the event. The Uber driver was a black woman, and we talked about social relations, dating and etc. Normally I don't talk about these stuff to random people, but I ended up talking about that. I talked to her about how I don't really have social relations, and let alone I never had a girlfriend. She didn't believe that I had social issues (as the conversations were going rather well) and she especially didn't believe that I never had a girlfriend. Then I told her one and only terrible experience I had with a drunk girl, which is the only experience I had with any girl. (It wasn't even a relation, it was that this random drunk girl came and kissed me and puked in my mouth......) Again, this isn't something I tell any random people, let alone I don't even talk about this to my close family members. So this was very odd.
Then the talk sorta became how for a girl it requires a good look, like good bum, breasts to get numbers, but told her that girls need to have good personalities to be in a relation, otherwise they just have one night stands. Which in turn became talk about one night stand, and how I thought many relationships in Western Hemisphere seem to start from one night stand, and if it is good then it gets a chance to become a real relationship. (This is my persona opinion, so I can be very wrong about it, and I accept that I can be wrong here.)
Okay, all of these are the stuff I don't really talk about with anyone in general. And this was quite interesting that how it turned out, and how it smoothly went.
5. Social event.
Talk was not sexual at all. Girls talked a bit about their friends' wedding and etc. I asked their age, and asked if that is common for them to get married in that age. Girls were having very good time talking with themselves. Including myself, guys didn't connect as well as I thought we could or I wished for more connection, but it felt as if I was connecting better than last time. In fact, it didn't feel that terrible for being quite silent. Another thing to note is that there was a dog at this place, and he was quite friendly. Because of a trauma, I don't handle a dog too well, but today, it was quite fine. The dog was jumping on pretty much everybody's lab, and I certainly had quite a bit of share of mine. I didn't know that holding a dog on my lab and petting it can be so calming and soothing. (The warmth was also a plus.) It was quite rewarding experience.
6. Babies
Okay, so I saw a few babies again today, and every baby stared at me, and some even turned in attempt to grab me. I sorta had this effect in the break between DMSI 2.2 to 2.3, but today it was quite obvious.
7. So at the end, I hung around a bit with other girls to play with the dog a bit. Shortly after we took off, and another girl was also leaving. It was late night, and I didn't feel safe waiting around there for an uber. Besides this girl was walking back to her apt. I offered to walk to her place, and I was going to take an uber. Had some more light talk, talked about some stuff like culture and food. I then learned that she is moving out tomorrow. I offered to help her tomorrow, but it is up to her to contact me. My feeling, she is not going to contact me. Why? I think she's going to be polite. Before I figured out that she was moving out, I told her that I had a plan to go to a museum tomorrow, and she was like if you are at a museum, or going to a museum, don't worry about it. Still, I gave her the number, offering her help if necessary. I'll leave it up to her to make the decision. If she asks for help, great, more social practice. If not, I'll have mass crowd to experiment with, and enjoy myself some art or some other stuff.
And when we arrived, she said she was going to wait for uber with me, (safety concern), and it turned out that there was an uber right out there. Before I requested Uber, I was thirsty, and without thinking I said "well I'm going to request uber, unless you are inviting me for a drink." I didn't have intention or any thought, but come to think of it now, I think I may have sounded more loaded than I thought about. Well, whatever, it's a practice.
8. Uber back.
This time the driver was a dude. Talked whole a lot about some of my academic interests and things like that. He ended up staying in front of my place talking with me for quite a while before getting a request for a pick up. This isn't anything new, as I have had one experience like this before, but I had this experience again, so I thought to share it.
Let's see how things will play in the future. For now, I'll stick with 7 loops and see how it goes.
1. Tiredness.
I woke up a bit earlier than usual, but I had about 7~8 hours of sleep, so it isn't that short of a sleep, but I nevertheless felt quite tired. Too tired to a point that I was going to go out to museum, but I couldn't. Ended up playing a bit of game instead at my home. (I was going to go to take a nap, but I couldn't do that either, so I just went to kill some time)
2. Irritability,
There were a few things that were irritable. One my apartment placed in a request for a screen that I never placed. I was irritated, which I would normally not have been. I called, and hoped that it would fix things, but the maintenance person came again. I was quite irritated, but nonetheless I treated him right, explained situation, and let him go. Well, there was this social event I went, and I needed to take Uber. First driver came relatively fast, but he was keep going away from my location, so I had to cancel it. Within that few minutes, it became prime time for 75% (Lyft became that way, and Uber's price got jacked up too.) I became quite irritated for this. I would have gotten irritated even under normal situation, but the level of irritability was much higher for this one. Another thing that was irritating was that there were about two Uber drivers waiting, and guess what, people never showed up! They jacked up the prime time! This got me very irritated.
3. A little increase in the level of my taste/standard, and more tolerance.
So there were many more girls than guys at this event. So there were like 3 guys (including me), and 6 girls. Something I noticed is that I noticed my standard went up by 5%. Say some of the girls that I felt were attractive were slightly less attractive than how I thought/felt last time. On the other hand, what was interesting was that the ones I thought were not rather unattractive, felt slightly more attractive today. So the top margin went up, but my tolerance for low level seems to have expanded as well. Interesting. Nevertheless, I still treated them the same.
4. Talking more about things related to sex.
So this happened with the Uber driver who took me to the event. The Uber driver was a black woman, and we talked about social relations, dating and etc. Normally I don't talk about these stuff to random people, but I ended up talking about that. I talked to her about how I don't really have social relations, and let alone I never had a girlfriend. She didn't believe that I had social issues (as the conversations were going rather well) and she especially didn't believe that I never had a girlfriend. Then I told her one and only terrible experience I had with a drunk girl, which is the only experience I had with any girl. (It wasn't even a relation, it was that this random drunk girl came and kissed me and puked in my mouth......) Again, this isn't something I tell any random people, let alone I don't even talk about this to my close family members. So this was very odd.
Then the talk sorta became how for a girl it requires a good look, like good bum, breasts to get numbers, but told her that girls need to have good personalities to be in a relation, otherwise they just have one night stands. Which in turn became talk about one night stand, and how I thought many relationships in Western Hemisphere seem to start from one night stand, and if it is good then it gets a chance to become a real relationship. (This is my persona opinion, so I can be very wrong about it, and I accept that I can be wrong here.)
Okay, all of these are the stuff I don't really talk about with anyone in general. And this was quite interesting that how it turned out, and how it smoothly went.
5. Social event.
Talk was not sexual at all. Girls talked a bit about their friends' wedding and etc. I asked their age, and asked if that is common for them to get married in that age. Girls were having very good time talking with themselves. Including myself, guys didn't connect as well as I thought we could or I wished for more connection, but it felt as if I was connecting better than last time. In fact, it didn't feel that terrible for being quite silent. Another thing to note is that there was a dog at this place, and he was quite friendly. Because of a trauma, I don't handle a dog too well, but today, it was quite fine. The dog was jumping on pretty much everybody's lab, and I certainly had quite a bit of share of mine. I didn't know that holding a dog on my lab and petting it can be so calming and soothing. (The warmth was also a plus.) It was quite rewarding experience.
6. Babies
Okay, so I saw a few babies again today, and every baby stared at me, and some even turned in attempt to grab me. I sorta had this effect in the break between DMSI 2.2 to 2.3, but today it was quite obvious.
7. So at the end, I hung around a bit with other girls to play with the dog a bit. Shortly after we took off, and another girl was also leaving. It was late night, and I didn't feel safe waiting around there for an uber. Besides this girl was walking back to her apt. I offered to walk to her place, and I was going to take an uber. Had some more light talk, talked about some stuff like culture and food. I then learned that she is moving out tomorrow. I offered to help her tomorrow, but it is up to her to contact me. My feeling, she is not going to contact me. Why? I think she's going to be polite. Before I figured out that she was moving out, I told her that I had a plan to go to a museum tomorrow, and she was like if you are at a museum, or going to a museum, don't worry about it. Still, I gave her the number, offering her help if necessary. I'll leave it up to her to make the decision. If she asks for help, great, more social practice. If not, I'll have mass crowd to experiment with, and enjoy myself some art or some other stuff.
And when we arrived, she said she was going to wait for uber with me, (safety concern), and it turned out that there was an uber right out there. Before I requested Uber, I was thirsty, and without thinking I said "well I'm going to request uber, unless you are inviting me for a drink." I didn't have intention or any thought, but come to think of it now, I think I may have sounded more loaded than I thought about. Well, whatever, it's a practice.
8. Uber back.
This time the driver was a dude. Talked whole a lot about some of my academic interests and things like that. He ended up staying in front of my place talking with me for quite a while before getting a request for a pick up. This isn't anything new, as I have had one experience like this before, but I had this experience again, so I thought to share it.
Let's see how things will play in the future. For now, I'll stick with 7 loops and see how it goes.
