08-25-2016, 03:20 PM
(08-23-2016, 04:59 PM)Benjamin Wrote: I can identify with that. I don't think it's got to that intensity for me during E2.
It's helping me open up, but then there's also a couple of girls i've opened up to who were basically all over me and been expressive and somehow they then go weird on me and it ***** does my head in like "what the ****, this is why I don't open up to people".
But i'm also finding E2 is helping me deal with those "this is why I don't do this" feelings from the past and making me be able to be more open anyway and part of the process seems to be learning how open to be.
Like you don't want to share everything, some things shouldn't be said. So at the moment for me atleast I think it's learning how open to be from first going to the extreme then learning to balance it.
Similar to sexual and emotional connections, i've been doing to either extreme during E2 and learning to adjust it and make it more balanced.
I've had a few times so far during E2 where i've felt like i'm just going to lose it. I've been allowing it to kind of express through my body when i've been in bed and usually when it relaxes after that I feel better.
Nice to know I'm not only one feeling this way. Tell me when you figure out a balance
The being flaky part I can relate to that. I just figured out that I got some serious abandonment issues. Every time I feel like I getting too close I pull away. Might be issues with me not feeling like a deserve good things too. Not that I'm saying that's why they did it. Just putting my reason out there.
