08-18-2016, 02:07 PM
Now let's talk about my subliminal history.
1. One issue I had with subs is being consistent. This had much to do with executive functioning issues that my sleep schedule was irregular, with the school work, sometimes my night would be too short, and etc.....
2. Anyway, I believe I started with attract romantic lover sub, for a few months (my listening wasn't that consistent due to the executive functioning challenges). (several years back)
3. Then, I moved to 5G version of Manifest sexual lover. I think I was on it for about 1~2 months (still having consistency issue, but I had much better consistency than the previous sub). I didn't manifest anyone (
) I realized was that I don't want anyone just for sex. I wanted romance, and a working relationship that would last and build on..... So I stopped listening to this sub.
4. I think I became content with the lack social connections/activities, and not having any romantic relationship. But at the time, I was in the need to choose between a few different graduate school options. I listened to US/LM combo for a while (about a month to month and a half), and I made my decision on the grad school. I left the United States to go back to my country. During my time in the country, I didn't listen to any subs, because I pretty much shipped everything to the new location I am studying.
5. I should have gotten back to US/LM, but I didn't. I don't remember why, but I didn't. And this was the time when I had somewhat a crisis moment. People with ASD typically have a difficult time adjusting to a new environment. I moved to a different area in the US (mid-west to East Coast), just moved from undergrad to grad school. All of these were posing challenges that with my executive functioning issue, I developed a sleep disorder that also needed to be dealt with. During these time, I wasn't even able to think about subs.
6. A pattern I noticed is that when my school is going well, and I don't have issues, I don't have that much issue of social needs. But when things start to go bad, then I start to pay attention to the lack of social issues. So after my first semester, I began seeing my current therapist, who is a specialist in ASD. I also did social training program. Did it make a difference? I am not necessarily seeing/feeling much difference, but my therapist is telling me that I am making a progress. Well, I have to say, at least I have been getting many conversational practices through all the ubers I had to take to see my therapist. (I don't drive, nor I have a car.)
1. One issue I had with subs is being consistent. This had much to do with executive functioning issues that my sleep schedule was irregular, with the school work, sometimes my night would be too short, and etc.....
2. Anyway, I believe I started with attract romantic lover sub, for a few months (my listening wasn't that consistent due to the executive functioning challenges). (several years back)
3. Then, I moved to 5G version of Manifest sexual lover. I think I was on it for about 1~2 months (still having consistency issue, but I had much better consistency than the previous sub). I didn't manifest anyone (
) I realized was that I don't want anyone just for sex. I wanted romance, and a working relationship that would last and build on..... So I stopped listening to this sub.4. I think I became content with the lack social connections/activities, and not having any romantic relationship. But at the time, I was in the need to choose between a few different graduate school options. I listened to US/LM combo for a while (about a month to month and a half), and I made my decision on the grad school. I left the United States to go back to my country. During my time in the country, I didn't listen to any subs, because I pretty much shipped everything to the new location I am studying.
5. I should have gotten back to US/LM, but I didn't. I don't remember why, but I didn't. And this was the time when I had somewhat a crisis moment. People with ASD typically have a difficult time adjusting to a new environment. I moved to a different area in the US (mid-west to East Coast), just moved from undergrad to grad school. All of these were posing challenges that with my executive functioning issue, I developed a sleep disorder that also needed to be dealt with. During these time, I wasn't even able to think about subs.
6. A pattern I noticed is that when my school is going well, and I don't have issues, I don't have that much issue of social needs. But when things start to go bad, then I start to pay attention to the lack of social issues. So after my first semester, I began seeing my current therapist, who is a specialist in ASD. I also did social training program. Did it make a difference? I am not necessarily seeing/feeling much difference, but my therapist is telling me that I am making a progress. Well, I have to say, at least I have been getting many conversational practices through all the ubers I had to take to see my therapist. (I don't drive, nor I have a car.)
