day 12
Shittest galore at work till the point of being disillusioned aswell as understanding the more depths of inner game. painfull teaching and very reacotionair but aware about it. Now game is changing to a more natural and deeper understanding, effortless deflecting and seeing the bullshit of women. never expect them to be sane or whatever. Embrace the chaos.
had some breakthrough yesterday about self-conscious and how I integrate fears. made me very present and dominant, called out people around me and socially more strong.
Also, mindset is everything. Something very deep is to be discovered there. alive and transformative. Also strong pull towards communication, which makes sense as I will not hide it. some very high levels can be reached here.
Dressed plainly in sweatpants yesterday, shirt and just comfortable, and this for some reason made some strong confidence come out, almost thuglife and everything came together, realisation after realisation. An ancient vibe towards it.
neediness reducted to the point that I am the prize, if she wants to do something else, i don't care at all, yet this does not break my frame and inner state whatsoever.
Feeling pretty depressed at the moment.
EDIT: growingly ecstatic, internal some beliefs are opposed, digging deeper into my will, undoing all unnecessary stuff. Incredibly self supportive by molding my world and leaving my mark on it.
Shittest galore at work till the point of being disillusioned aswell as understanding the more depths of inner game. painfull teaching and very reacotionair but aware about it. Now game is changing to a more natural and deeper understanding, effortless deflecting and seeing the bullshit of women. never expect them to be sane or whatever. Embrace the chaos.
had some breakthrough yesterday about self-conscious and how I integrate fears. made me very present and dominant, called out people around me and socially more strong.
Also, mindset is everything. Something very deep is to be discovered there. alive and transformative. Also strong pull towards communication, which makes sense as I will not hide it. some very high levels can be reached here.
Dressed plainly in sweatpants yesterday, shirt and just comfortable, and this for some reason made some strong confidence come out, almost thuglife and everything came together, realisation after realisation. An ancient vibe towards it.
neediness reducted to the point that I am the prize, if she wants to do something else, i don't care at all, yet this does not break my frame and inner state whatsoever.
Feeling pretty depressed at the moment.
EDIT: growingly ecstatic, internal some beliefs are opposed, digging deeper into my will, undoing all unnecessary stuff. Incredibly self supportive by molding my world and leaving my mark on it.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
