05-28-2010, 07:07 PM
Lately, I'm noticing that I'm more and more reticent about spending money. Now the money I spend has to be something that I've been wanting for some time, or I can't do without in regards to some goal. Or goes to something I know I will use. I realize that part of this is due to the fact that I'm not making that much money to begin with. But I'm becoming for frugal. I even put $50 into my savings account. However, I found that money doesn't accrue interest until it is over $100. But I got the ball rolling, anyway.
I was thinking about all the nitpicking and henpecking my family puts me through. And I realized that nitpicking and henpecking is really a form of affirmation--a negative form of affirmation to be sure--as it's so repetitive. I used to be rail thin until my mid-twenties. When I was a teenager, my mom would put me on diets, despite the fact that I was rail thin and didn't need to be on a diet. She wanted others to be on a diet with her. And she would keep telling me that I would be fat one day. But I would spend much of the day being hungry. It was all preventative in her mind. Well the rest is history.
Anyway, I am the one who fills my face with food. But my mom will pull things out of left field just to let me know I'm fat...as if I hadn't heard her the other 50 or so times today or any other day. And now that my entire family is slowly trickling in to pay a visit this summer, I'm going to be getting more and more nitpicking and henpecking. It's particularly hypocritical, as most of the men in my family are as fat as me. They just think they don't eat as much as me. And maybe they don't, but it tells you how healthy their diets are. One of my cousins only eats fast food, and hardly anything else. You can almost literally count the food items he eats on one hand.
So...what does this have to do with manifesting wealth and success? When I finally get my own place (and I'm holding that prophecy I made in a post above to be true), I"m going to make it a haven for positivity--or at least as far as statements that are directed at me are concerned. I will still listen to my extreme metal music, but it's going to be offset by positive affirmations directed at me...as nothing in my music is directed at me, personally. I believe it's the stuff that you take personally, or is personally directed at you that's going to have a real effect on your thinking and your life.
I feel that a new stage in my life has already been set in motion. And I'm treating and protecting it as I would a newly growing shoot of a plant. I feel calmer and more present than ever before, but the discontent is still there. I'm getting a good amount of work in, so far. But I can't wait to get out of my current circumstances.
Anyway, I'm certain that either next week or the week after, I will be buying the Woman Magnet sub, just so I have it. On Memorial Day, I will be working on my sound system, among other things. I finally got some 18 gauge speaker wire so I can hook my speakers up to my Chinese amplifier.
Btw, if you are playing a game or listening to the subs through a set of speakers while having the subs play in the background, will that damage the speakers? The reason I'm asking is because I'm going to be doing a lot of stealth listening while my family is visiting.
I was thinking about all the nitpicking and henpecking my family puts me through. And I realized that nitpicking and henpecking is really a form of affirmation--a negative form of affirmation to be sure--as it's so repetitive. I used to be rail thin until my mid-twenties. When I was a teenager, my mom would put me on diets, despite the fact that I was rail thin and didn't need to be on a diet. She wanted others to be on a diet with her. And she would keep telling me that I would be fat one day. But I would spend much of the day being hungry. It was all preventative in her mind. Well the rest is history.
Anyway, I am the one who fills my face with food. But my mom will pull things out of left field just to let me know I'm fat...as if I hadn't heard her the other 50 or so times today or any other day. And now that my entire family is slowly trickling in to pay a visit this summer, I'm going to be getting more and more nitpicking and henpecking. It's particularly hypocritical, as most of the men in my family are as fat as me. They just think they don't eat as much as me. And maybe they don't, but it tells you how healthy their diets are. One of my cousins only eats fast food, and hardly anything else. You can almost literally count the food items he eats on one hand.
So...what does this have to do with manifesting wealth and success? When I finally get my own place (and I'm holding that prophecy I made in a post above to be true), I"m going to make it a haven for positivity--or at least as far as statements that are directed at me are concerned. I will still listen to my extreme metal music, but it's going to be offset by positive affirmations directed at me...as nothing in my music is directed at me, personally. I believe it's the stuff that you take personally, or is personally directed at you that's going to have a real effect on your thinking and your life.
I feel that a new stage in my life has already been set in motion. And I'm treating and protecting it as I would a newly growing shoot of a plant. I feel calmer and more present than ever before, but the discontent is still there. I'm getting a good amount of work in, so far. But I can't wait to get out of my current circumstances.
Anyway, I'm certain that either next week or the week after, I will be buying the Woman Magnet sub, just so I have it. On Memorial Day, I will be working on my sound system, among other things. I finally got some 18 gauge speaker wire so I can hook my speakers up to my Chinese amplifier.
Btw, if you are playing a game or listening to the subs through a set of speakers while having the subs play in the background, will that damage the speakers? The reason I'm asking is because I'm going to be doing a lot of stealth listening while my family is visiting.
