07-24-2016, 09:08 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-24-2016, 09:15 PM by hiddenalias.)
Day 31
July 24th
Trickling Stream
Vol 15
2 hours listening whilst asleep
2 hours listening whilst awake
Total Listening time 4 hours
So what sucks is that while listening to the sub during sleep, my cord got disconnected and I then the phone died....funny that as I am reaching toward the end of listening to EPHRA, I am listening lesser and lesser. I felt irrational again fearing stuff especially toward my sister. But I felt calm around my bro in law and usually I didnt....but I still dont feel comfortable eating around with family when everyone is there especially when the topic is about me....made a comment to my Bro in law about my opinion when it comes to travel (leisure fun talk) I guess.
Started feeling pissed off when my mom brings up my "marriage" about what my in laws can shop with me when it comes to gifts for the occassion.....felt upset and annoyed....
Another thing that bugged me was my brother and how he just had a baby and sent pix but I didnt care cuz I hate his guts and my mom goes to tell me that my brother called (and she knows I dont care what he did) so why bother telling me about it; they asked me to save pictures with pix that he sent of his wife n their newborn son.....I understand it should be a happy occasion but I cant give a F because of him....definitely some issues there EPHRA needs to dig deeper with just these 2 incidences and my emotional negative reaction to them both.
Nothing else exciting to report....no surprise if I only listened 2 hours during sleep so that effected the outcome I presume. Tomorrow is my last day with EPHRA before starting AM 6 the day after.
July 24th
Trickling Stream
Vol 15
2 hours listening whilst asleep
2 hours listening whilst awake
Total Listening time 4 hours
So what sucks is that while listening to the sub during sleep, my cord got disconnected and I then the phone died....funny that as I am reaching toward the end of listening to EPHRA, I am listening lesser and lesser. I felt irrational again fearing stuff especially toward my sister. But I felt calm around my bro in law and usually I didnt....but I still dont feel comfortable eating around with family when everyone is there especially when the topic is about me....made a comment to my Bro in law about my opinion when it comes to travel (leisure fun talk) I guess.
Started feeling pissed off when my mom brings up my "marriage" about what my in laws can shop with me when it comes to gifts for the occassion.....felt upset and annoyed....
Another thing that bugged me was my brother and how he just had a baby and sent pix but I didnt care cuz I hate his guts and my mom goes to tell me that my brother called (and she knows I dont care what he did) so why bother telling me about it; they asked me to save pictures with pix that he sent of his wife n their newborn son.....I understand it should be a happy occasion but I cant give a F because of him....definitely some issues there EPHRA needs to dig deeper with just these 2 incidences and my emotional negative reaction to them both.
Nothing else exciting to report....no surprise if I only listened 2 hours during sleep so that effected the outcome I presume. Tomorrow is my last day with EPHRA before starting AM 6 the day after.
