EPHRA v 1.0 Returning with A (Bad-Ass) Vengeance

[Rennus]

Day 29
July 22nd
Trickling Stream
vol 15
2 hours listened


So I was using my "new" phone today and forgot to set it into a loop and just listened for 30 min during sleep and then when I realized it I squeezed in another 90 min set it on loop and went on with my day.

I've had some noticeable experiences with EPHRA.....but 32 days is not going to be enough to dig deep into my mind to clear any mental garbage still present.

Like yesterday I felt comfortable around people to do some stupid things like dancing. But today at work, things started out good and I shook hands and tried to play it cool in the start joking with the workers like talking about giving me a nickname and introducing myself shaking hands to the coworkers. But during work I just stayed quiet.....however I felt relaxed and calm but still no interperosnal skills where I could talk and mingle with anyone......I know it was my first day there and it takes time for people to become acquainted with you.....but things I thought started out good but ended like I was a loser and no one cared about me there.....

Comfortable with things like dancing? That sounds pretty nice, man.

I know what you mean, about the staying quiet thing, that's usually how it is for me too at new places or with new people, I end up being quiet at times. In my experience I've noticed the more I expect out of myself at the start of a social event or interaction, the more likely I am to get nervous or anxious later on.

I think we have to take it easy with what we expect out of ourselves at work and other social situations, bro. The subs help a lot with social skills, but ultimately it takes time for the skillset and confidence to develop with experience. When I expected too much too soon, it blocked my progress heavily, I'd say try and just be forgiving with yourself for now. You gotta treat your mind like an old friend - help it along, don't whip it. It's the one thing that's easiest to forget.