06-23-2011, 03:13 PM
Stage 2 day 29
Three days ago I had a dream about being chased by lots of women wanting to have sex with me.I remember being afraid of it.It's probably a subconscious issue being dealt with.
Sex drive is increasing,I can be very horny at times.
It seems to work on issues of sexual confidence and self esteem.I'm had one of those nights that I had things clicking together.I was feeling that I have sexual value and confidence and my entire perception of myself in this area was different.
I realized if some woman isn't interested in having sex with me it's her loss.
That's very different than my previous way of thinking.I acted more of like a beggar,trying to get laid,hoping this one time with a random woman it will
work,acting with boyfriend behavior and being romantic and all this stuff
because it was the only way I knew how to act.
I think it's dishonest now and I don't feel like doing it again.I don't feel like faking relationships anymore.I got into those behaviors where something seems to work with a woman so I go in this behavior with women I didn't want to get involved like that and it felt like a chore.
I think it came from a place of feeling not valuable sexually and women having all the playing chips in that area.
I occurred to me I can say no to sex even with beautiful women.I don't feel my previous sense of scarcity around the subject anymore.
I'm starting to question if I actually want a girlfriend or it is because of doubts and scarcity,fears of being lonely and because it's was so f***ing
hard for me to get with a woman sexually that it was easier to settle for the first one that agrees.Than I thought to myself that this is exactly my attitude about money and jobs.
There also more interest in learning about sexuality and sexual techniques.
Neediness is being completely killed by this subliminal.
There was the effect in the alpha set of losing all interest in women that reject me.It's even stronger now,it's completely normal to get detached from all emotion to rejection and woman if it doesn't work.
Not much to report in terms of results as I'm taking my tests now and I don't get to socialize much.
Three days ago I had a dream about being chased by lots of women wanting to have sex with me.I remember being afraid of it.It's probably a subconscious issue being dealt with.
Sex drive is increasing,I can be very horny at times.
It seems to work on issues of sexual confidence and self esteem.I'm had one of those nights that I had things clicking together.I was feeling that I have sexual value and confidence and my entire perception of myself in this area was different.
I realized if some woman isn't interested in having sex with me it's her loss.
That's very different than my previous way of thinking.I acted more of like a beggar,trying to get laid,hoping this one time with a random woman it will
work,acting with boyfriend behavior and being romantic and all this stuff
because it was the only way I knew how to act.
I think it's dishonest now and I don't feel like doing it again.I don't feel like faking relationships anymore.I got into those behaviors where something seems to work with a woman so I go in this behavior with women I didn't want to get involved like that and it felt like a chore.
I think it came from a place of feeling not valuable sexually and women having all the playing chips in that area.
I occurred to me I can say no to sex even with beautiful women.I don't feel my previous sense of scarcity around the subject anymore.
I'm starting to question if I actually want a girlfriend or it is because of doubts and scarcity,fears of being lonely and because it's was so f***ing
hard for me to get with a woman sexually that it was easier to settle for the first one that agrees.Than I thought to myself that this is exactly my attitude about money and jobs.
There also more interest in learning about sexuality and sexual techniques.
Neediness is being completely killed by this subliminal.
There was the effect in the alpha set of losing all interest in women that reject me.It's even stronger now,it's completely normal to get detached from all emotion to rejection and woman if it doesn't work.
Not much to report in terms of results as I'm taking my tests now and I don't get to socialize much.
