So, its seems something is blocking me from seeing results and my guess it is actually fear. having bouts of depression. 3 women surrounded me at the gym, guys get all qualifying and one downright spilled an whole story about going on vactation to ibiza. another girl gave me the deer in the headlights look, treatments of women get better and its as if having this impenetratable field around me, like it cqan only go one way, as if my frame washes over others.
I also seem to go back to childlike spirit in an way, how it is connected to growing up, how boys set the frame and dislike girls and shit ( inspired by the book of pook and the fountain of youth chapter ) , it even now resonates on an deeper level, making sense and crushing resistance. How girls growing up still remain girls and stuff. Something deeper connected with it, as if my personality explands that way and becomes bigger, including dominant, as well as deeper in that way. Its almost some invisible connection to it and reminds me of pre-selection tho its not my field.
maybe people see an sort of dad in me in terms of that, I dont know, it makes me feel as if I am lightyears beyond.
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Having re-occuring dick tingles and connecting towards dominance, vision of penetration goign around, matter of time before this overturns it. kino escaltion is no problem at all, push pull, pushing her away, drawing her in, getting physical and getting her replicating and what not, but the initial; crap is what is what I am dealing with, like the old programming kicks in. Journalling is beneficial in this and writing this out solves some stuff and I take full responsibility for it. some slight anger is surfacing but it is smouldering, not an wildfire that goes full against this limiting stuff. My mind occasionally shuts down when it happens, my body and mind seem to sort of hesitate to it.
I also seem to go back to childlike spirit in an way, how it is connected to growing up, how boys set the frame and dislike girls and shit ( inspired by the book of pook and the fountain of youth chapter ) , it even now resonates on an deeper level, making sense and crushing resistance. How girls growing up still remain girls and stuff. Something deeper connected with it, as if my personality explands that way and becomes bigger, including dominant, as well as deeper in that way. Its almost some invisible connection to it and reminds me of pre-selection tho its not my field.
maybe people see an sort of dad in me in terms of that, I dont know, it makes me feel as if I am lightyears beyond.
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Having re-occuring dick tingles and connecting towards dominance, vision of penetration goign around, matter of time before this overturns it. kino escaltion is no problem at all, push pull, pushing her away, drawing her in, getting physical and getting her replicating and what not, but the initial; crap is what is what I am dealing with, like the old programming kicks in. Journalling is beneficial in this and writing this out solves some stuff and I take full responsibility for it. some slight anger is surfacing but it is smouldering, not an wildfire that goes full against this limiting stuff. My mind occasionally shuts down when it happens, my body and mind seem to sort of hesitate to it.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
