07-13-2016, 02:36 AM
Went out yesterday and my traits where displaying. Confidence, dominance, leading without question, clear in my communication bordering on harsh.
Notice an petterns that familiar girls are no issue, one girl I hadn't seem for years I grabbed her, looked her straight in the eyes without being able to break off and she fell into trance. Almost hypnotic seductive. I thought wtf was going on, she seemed to seek somethign when it happened. It was almost an compelling dominating manner.
An friend of mine tried to secure himself by telling me to "not put in my charm"yeah, as if thats going to happen...
Having still some internal blocks going on, its still stage 5..patterns in terms of not approaching, I know that I have had moments of not approaching desires and this was empowering in an way, thus destruction neediness. patterns of "out of her league" perhaps, while at the same time I know this is fucking bullshit. Its an matter of inner game and am ravenign about it.
Familiar girls I pull in without hesitation, left right, come here and they love it. Guys seem to be shot down when making eye contact, it doesn't phase me. Its an big mindfuck to have this conflict happen.
perhaps SM3 will eventually deal with it.
Increasingly MGTOW tendencies aznd fully becoming my own point of origin, my own mind of origin.
Also had am dream I runned AM for an second round without an break at all. AM works in more way then I realize. More interest is showing aswell, one girl of another friend was constantly sexualizing, physically, I could fuck her but don't. older women show interest, as well as another girl asked for my FB through an friend.
I feel an strong distate to write about this all, about women to begin with. has to be AM.
Notice an petterns that familiar girls are no issue, one girl I hadn't seem for years I grabbed her, looked her straight in the eyes without being able to break off and she fell into trance. Almost hypnotic seductive. I thought wtf was going on, she seemed to seek somethign when it happened. It was almost an compelling dominating manner.
An friend of mine tried to secure himself by telling me to "not put in my charm"yeah, as if thats going to happen...
Having still some internal blocks going on, its still stage 5..patterns in terms of not approaching, I know that I have had moments of not approaching desires and this was empowering in an way, thus destruction neediness. patterns of "out of her league" perhaps, while at the same time I know this is fucking bullshit. Its an matter of inner game and am ravenign about it.
Familiar girls I pull in without hesitation, left right, come here and they love it. Guys seem to be shot down when making eye contact, it doesn't phase me. Its an big mindfuck to have this conflict happen.
perhaps SM3 will eventually deal with it.
Increasingly MGTOW tendencies aznd fully becoming my own point of origin, my own mind of origin.
Also had am dream I runned AM for an second round without an break at all. AM works in more way then I realize. More interest is showing aswell, one girl of another friend was constantly sexualizing, physically, I could fuck her but don't. older women show interest, as well as another girl asked for my FB through an friend.
I feel an strong distate to write about this all, about women to begin with. has to be AM.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
