Shannon's Journal Discussion

[Shannon]

Shannon is right. I was very angry when I was young and I've since mellowed with age becuz I realize it was pointless, draining and exhausting. i was not productive career wise becuz I focus on the anger rather than the solution to my problems. this made me missed an opportunity to be wealthy, happy, and ina great relationship in my 20s. even today I still have to find reminding myself that anger is like a poison that I take expecting my enemy to die.

Same. I was literally just talking to someone about this. I don't really believe in soulmates. Not that you can't have a "soulmate" bond with someone -- but that there's only one soulmate for you.

But if soulmates exist, this woman I hung out with in 2014 was it. We had a connection that I've never experienced before, EVER and have never experienced since then.

She even told my best friend that she was, but I was so consumed with rage, anger and fear that I kept pushing her away, never letting her get close. To this day, she still tells our mutual friends how she misses our bond, but for logistical reasons, it'd be hard to pursue anything with her.

I don't want to say that I missed my chance, because I could rekindle something with her and I'm attempting to do so... but I might've missed my chance.

After the incident that happened the other night (which spread into my real life), I vowed to let go of this anger. Trust me, my entire life -- from childhood to now -- has been shaped and molded by pain and hatred and rage. Every decision I've made (from martial arts, to what I studied in school) was shaped by this anger to "get back at the world."

It's not working for me. Never did. I want more. Just the other day, I was meditating and began mourning for the person I was once upon a time. When I was a child, I had aspirations of become that "wise alpha," because I felt that I had a very strong connection with the universe. And then, I let that anger twist me into something else, something perverted, where I used that "connection" with the universe to manipulate and harm others.

It's time to let it go, walk a new path. If I can do it, I know others can.

My best understanding is that there are two or possibly three kinds of "soul mates".

You have "The One", who is usually called your Twin Flame, and then you have what are known as Mirror soul mates. Mirror souls are people who aren't really soul mates, but they are frequently mistaken for them because the karmic agreement to work out issues together is so powerful and in-your-face. It can drag you right through fears that would otherwise have sent you running screaming and fearing for your very life, and it can hold you together even when you know that being together is totally insane. I have lived both of these situations with mirror souls.

Some sources also state that there is a "companion" soul mate, who is someone you have no romantic or sexual attraction to or bond with, but are still very deeply bonded with in special ways. These are usually friends, parents, siblings or some other form of family member. I believe my mother to have been one of these in my life.

According to the sources I take seriously, there is only one "The One", and there can be any number of the rest. I have encountered a relatively large number of mirror souls in my life already.