Am 6.0 first run

[Kol]

To invested in texting, now I'm going cold, and it is empowering to retreat like that and it shows how much attachment there is. One moment I can walk away easily, like it doesn't get to me, the other moment I fall slightly back in this texting mode, like an slight fear of loss and how this freeze out might blow me up, otherside, it shows attachment. Its new so I guess I adjust. Something important. Its inner game development. Realizing calibration, connection, desperation. Realize how being pushy can turn off as it isn't communication really. Its insightfull. Also, it shows an subtle dynamic, like, not taking away the mystery. 1 step back = also an step back. IOI begets IOI, IOD begets an IOD, no eed to try harder, it comes across as needy, try hard and desperate/scarcity.

Edit; im realizing the "no tekst" thing now. Its actually pretty funny. also the whole buddy buddy has to go, I'm about straight to the point sexually. I fucked up last time by not being aggressive enough with the escalation an it made me somewhat feel like crap. I know now. I only can conclude its an fear being dissolved as this kind of thought sticks now. Another road forming in my being.
Like "an girl responds shortly"fine, back off, don't care, kthxbye. Its actually an new lifestyle opposing my old one. Note to self: don't try to control her behaviour, she behaves like a cunt, next her ass, freeze her out, nothing lost. Its the only way to attraction.