The Modern Libertine's diary

[Cortez]

I keep having these odd "off" days where I feel kind of depressed. There's something that's being worked on in me. Also, I think I need to get some new hobbies, because I socialize a decent amount, but I'd like to be doing it a lot more. I need to make some more friends. The ones I have are great, but I only have a few close ones left as I always drift away from some friends and make new ones and I feel like it's one of those "making new friends" times for me. As I change, I make different types of friends Ya feel me? I'll be working on that.

However, even on my "off days" I am getting tons of attention. Just now for instance, I was at the store shopping for a BBQ we're having tonight at my house and I look over at one of those mini bank things that are in grocery stores and a woman is just blatantly staring at me smiling, so of course I smiled back. I flirt with most women, lol. There's also a ton of girls at work that have been all over me. Out of all of those, there's one I like.

Another thing that keeps happening is that I keep having these bursts of immense joy and compassion for other people. It's a damn good feeling and I wish that I could feel this way all the time. One can aspire for such things. God, listen to me talk...I'm talking about joy and love and all that now as my goals now. A year ago all I cared about was getting laid with the hottest chicks I could, lmao.