Shannon's Journal Discussion

[Shannon]

Hey guys.

I'm on day 38 of E2, at 12-15 hrs per day. Not really noticing any effects besides a slight depression and major lack of motivation.
I read reports from fellow E2 listeners having vivid dreams and feelings of joy or happiness, but I don't recall ANY dreams or any feelings besides depression on E2. My baseline emotional state before starting E2 was normally "happy", I might add.

Hardly any interest in women, or hanging out with friends since a week into E2. Last two weeks I'm a hermit, playing videogames and wathing NetFlix in my lonesome...

In the beginning I got fatigued from listening 16+ hours, so I scaled down to 8 and worked my way up to where I can do 12+ without feeling burned out, but I'm still tired.

Is this resistance? Is E2 working for me? Should I do more/less hours? Should I be doing something to "help" E2? (I just press play, no meditation or whatever tapping is)

Gaah, I'm all over the place with these doubts and insecurities!

In short; is there a light at the end of this E2 tunnel, or am I seeing the train a comin'?

Depression and lack of motivation is what the conscious awareness experiences while the deep, painful shit is being dealt with, processed, outgrown and released subconsciously. It means the program is doing it's job. Everyone is coming from a different place, so everyone has a different response. But if doing E2 leads to depression, your baseline "happy" was because you buried everything else and were not dealing & healing. Burying it means it was festering. And when you lance a festering boil, it's going to stink a bit somehow.

Try 2, 4,6 and 8 hours for a few days each and see if there's not a balance there that suits you better.