To a new Horizon - AM6

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Stage 5 Day 2

Feeling good and awake. Easy to get up in the morning and go to work.
I feel motivated to chnage my life and go out meet people, doing sport, train, start new hobbies, but still something holding me back. Its like old fears of being judged and laughed about.

Also i get more and more reactions in the public that people (strangers) talk behind me that i am gay.
Cant explain it but always had this a little but lately its alot more... Its annoying and weakens my selfconfidence....

Also i see all the things other peopel do and have amd wamt it aswell but dont know how.
Facebook is a bitch shows u unrealistic lifes, because u always only see the best

Well. Interestingly enough, when 'gay' comments come from strangers; it may be an opportunity to see your 'Alphaness' come out to the surface even stronger.... for example, observing yourself; mannerisms, speech, dress....Perhaps, a time period of objectively seeing yourself as others see you. And consciously, making Alpha-like changes