07-05-2016, 06:37 AM
Self development basically. due my ptsd symptoms 2 year ago and breakdown took off from work as an whole. Now i'm all about internet business, marketing and self-expression/ entrepreneurship.
Yes, Am has brought many things to the surface, caused many shifts to happen ( as I am the start of stage 5, 2 days in currently ) I notice already more openness and lucidity. In the last few days of stage 4 I notice that I became more rebellious. relationships and the such have also shifted in terms of look out, self understanding and quality asserting. Many things have been sacrficed, yet other things have been gained.
In terms of social abundance, I'm growing more towards quality and openness. Its as if bathing in an sea of abundance and nothing is really an attack anymore like before. no crippling anxieties but rather in control.
The road has been harsh at times, today I did hit rock bottom and eventually something clicked, heart ache and what not, I'm more self-sufficient and thriving on self-excellence, yet still want to run it an second time. almost bordering masochistic if I look back at it, yet it feels like an core example of being alpha.
I still have similar fears surfacing, fears of that the sub makes me so alpha that I will reject certain jobs if it turns out that way. Its still an internal conflict for me. Where attention goes, energy flows.
Yes, Am has brought many things to the surface, caused many shifts to happen ( as I am the start of stage 5, 2 days in currently ) I notice already more openness and lucidity. In the last few days of stage 4 I notice that I became more rebellious. relationships and the such have also shifted in terms of look out, self understanding and quality asserting. Many things have been sacrficed, yet other things have been gained.
In terms of social abundance, I'm growing more towards quality and openness. Its as if bathing in an sea of abundance and nothing is really an attack anymore like before. no crippling anxieties but rather in control.
The road has been harsh at times, today I did hit rock bottom and eventually something clicked, heart ache and what not, I'm more self-sufficient and thriving on self-excellence, yet still want to run it an second time. almost bordering masochistic if I look back at it, yet it feels like an core example of being alpha.
I still have similar fears surfacing, fears of that the sub makes me so alpha that I will reject certain jobs if it turns out that way. Its still an internal conflict for me. Where attention goes, energy flows.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
