Had a sex dream involving an 3-some.
Currently depression is hitting and I feel it in my body, many fears are surfacing.
Pull towards again more healthy food to make me more present. Very strong urge.
Fear around leadership/dominance, some basic stuff provokes an mass amount of fear. Now, I know this comes from scarcity aswell,
Im growing more pessimistic around people. Like, girls are like little sisters and guys seem geenrally lost.
My mind is clouded with stuff surfacing. I regain an sense of my alpha core slowly. Discipline and self-love, supplication to self-love.
In an way this whole one-iotis story, scarcity that runned very deep and comes to the surface is something to be dealt with and brought to light. It reverts me back to beta.
Ying/yang/masucline/feminine, initiate and take the lead. the relaxing aspect of the feminine, the active of the masculine. Not to say to chase.
I'm still making eye contact but its more "exclusive"/selective. My care level is dropping yet I feel empowered around it. Like, making eye contact subconsciously through attraction, this is an very profound something.
The fear around leadership, asking her and general checking up her feelings and state is somethign that is overcome now. I'm allowing it and it seems to be an selftrust issue. Its all internal.
Had even some suicidal thoughts/slighht suicidal feelings surface but it all seems positive.
Currently depression is hitting and I feel it in my body, many fears are surfacing.
Pull towards again more healthy food to make me more present. Very strong urge.
Fear around leadership/dominance, some basic stuff provokes an mass amount of fear. Now, I know this comes from scarcity aswell,
Im growing more pessimistic around people. Like, girls are like little sisters and guys seem geenrally lost.
My mind is clouded with stuff surfacing. I regain an sense of my alpha core slowly. Discipline and self-love, supplication to self-love.
In an way this whole one-iotis story, scarcity that runned very deep and comes to the surface is something to be dealt with and brought to light. It reverts me back to beta.
Ying/yang/masucline/feminine, initiate and take the lead. the relaxing aspect of the feminine, the active of the masculine. Not to say to chase.
I'm still making eye contact but its more "exclusive"/selective. My care level is dropping yet I feel empowered around it. Like, making eye contact subconsciously through attraction, this is an very profound something.
The fear around leadership, asking her and general checking up her feelings and state is somethign that is overcome now. I'm allowing it and it seems to be an selftrust issue. Its all internal.
Had even some suicidal thoughts/slighht suicidal feelings surface but it all seems positive.
The trials you encounter will introduce you to your strengths. - epictetus
