06-06-2011, 11:27 PM
The first few days I was feeling unrelaxed. Haven gone out by myself almost every day, was a uncomfortable thing to do. Did anything by myself and had the intuition that I was a loner from time to time.
Yesterday, (Day 6) I went clubbing by myself. I was feeling good before I came in and I was feeling good when I entered the club.
What made my night was the great music the DJ played, the donkeys on the dancefloor
and the beer!
At a point I got to up to the scene (room to 8 people) this girl which danced left to me wanted me to make a move. I didn't so another guy came up and gave her what she wanted. I didn't really care and rocked the scene further. Some guy I've briefly met danced under me and it was so hilarious because he was such a donkey.. but he was nice.
A girl to the right brushed up against me and pushed me from time to time.
Later when I consciously gave myself the feeling of gratitude and joy a girl suddenly came under me and just faced me dancing. I thought, cool. I noticed that there was this space around her, like it was me and her and people didn't wanted to interrupt her action. We got some eyecontact going on too. Then a donkey started to talk to her and touch her and after a little while, she went away from him to the bar.
Got tired, got a beer, went outside to get some air.
Got down, took a seat, feeling goooood.
An African girl sat in front of me and wanted me to make a move. I did. With eyecontact. Her english wasn't so good. I wanted to see if she was fun and not just a whore. Anyway, she brushed her legs against mine as soon I wanted to say something to her and kept them touching. I pointed it out and said, "Get out of here! I'm not that easy
" and pushed her away. She asked me where I stayed and wanted to come home with me.
We dance for a while. I say I'll be back. After I've pissed and I came back, I saw her leave - probably with the guy her friend knew.
Well.. it was actually a great opportunity to accept that night but I was too passive I guess.
On the positive side, I didn't feel bad at all
Gonna head out again. Laters boys !
Yesterday, (Day 6) I went clubbing by myself. I was feeling good before I came in and I was feeling good when I entered the club.
What made my night was the great music the DJ played, the donkeys on the dancefloor
and the beer!At a point I got to up to the scene (room to 8 people) this girl which danced left to me wanted me to make a move. I didn't so another guy came up and gave her what she wanted. I didn't really care and rocked the scene further. Some guy I've briefly met danced under me and it was so hilarious because he was such a donkey.. but he was nice.
A girl to the right brushed up against me and pushed me from time to time.
Later when I consciously gave myself the feeling of gratitude and joy a girl suddenly came under me and just faced me dancing. I thought, cool. I noticed that there was this space around her, like it was me and her and people didn't wanted to interrupt her action. We got some eyecontact going on too. Then a donkey started to talk to her and touch her and after a little while, she went away from him to the bar.
Got tired, got a beer, went outside to get some air.
Got down, took a seat, feeling goooood.
An African girl sat in front of me and wanted me to make a move. I did. With eyecontact. Her english wasn't so good. I wanted to see if she was fun and not just a whore. Anyway, she brushed her legs against mine as soon I wanted to say something to her and kept them touching. I pointed it out and said, "Get out of here! I'm not that easy
" and pushed her away. She asked me where I stayed and wanted to come home with me.We dance for a while. I say I'll be back. After I've pissed and I came back, I saw her leave - probably with the guy her friend knew.
Well.. it was actually a great opportunity to accept that night but I was too passive I guess.
On the positive side, I didn't feel bad at all
Gonna head out again. Laters boys !
