The Modern Libertine's diary

[Cortez]

I've been getting way irritated lately. It's kind of like some of the beginning stages of alpha. It's a good thing I'm used to this sort of thing. It just means I'm growing or that my mind is forcing me to. I'd better let up on whatever resistance I'm feeling. Being irritable isn't a fun thing. It will pass. That just tells me that this subliminal is hardcore.


Oh, one thing I noticed that has improved A LOT lately. Is that whenever anyone says something to me and especially when they make a smart ass remark, I generally stare them in the eye's and wait a few seconds before answering them. One thing I noticed about the way men and women interact over the years is that men tend to react RIGHT when a woman says something to them, often times speaking way too fast and saying something stupid. I have worked on slowing down my speech and not reacting to women's smart ass behavior over the years, but generally it has been a conscious thing. Lately, though, whenever one of them says something like that to get me to react, I stare them in the eye's with a slight smirk on my face, take a deep breath and THEN answer them or I don't even answer them at all and just give them a shoulder shrug or roll my eye's. It's also pretty hard for guys to AMOG(For lack of a better term, God help me) me and I have met some guys that are true champs at it. I'm getting to the master level at Verbal Aikido, which is what I like to call non-resistance in conversations and going with the flow of whatever someone is saying about you and adding to it instead of pushing up against any accusations and becoming defensive. It makes for very charming conversation.

I should have an interesting day tomorrow. Last weekend for ren faire, I'm going by myself and I have some antics planned.