(Old Journal/No More Updates)Cars, Parks, and Restrooms - DMSI 5.5G/Maximum Sexiosity

[lokko]

hey RTBoss, i have not read all your journal, but wanted to ask you how much do you think AOSI has helped it in losing your virginity?

I lost my virginity 16 years ago, so no.

Ahem... I had a question tho (hope it's not stupid) BUT... if you're not planning to mess around with your marriage, why on earth are you running AOSI??

Not stupid at all.

REALLY ***** STUPID.

Just kidding.

I said it somewhere on the forum, but essentially I'm looking to get some of the sexual spark we had early on in our relationship back. I read about marriages where the woman is the one left wondering why her husband doesn't want to have sex with her anymore. My marriage is the opposite. Sex is a cornerstone of life for me. My wife? Not-so-much. She could take it or leave it. I don't get it. She has an orgasm 2-4 times in 5 minutes. What's not to like?

Another reason, if I'm being completely honest, is ego. I want to know what it's like to feel like a piece of meat. I want to be lusted after. I want to see the hunger in their eyes, and turn it down, lol. I'm just hoping it's not as hard as it could turn out to be. So that part's a little scary.

I also want to rid myself of GSF revolving around women & sex. I was raised in a Christian "keep-it-in-your-pants," until you're married, virginity is special, porn-is-the-devil (bad boy for looking at that Playboy!), how dare you think of a girl like that who you haven't married yet...you get the picture. I feel like that crap still affects me to this day. I also have GSF around my self-image. So experience being viewed as sexy, wanted, etc. will do wonders for my self-esteem. I'm tired of judging myself all the time, I want that cycle to end.

Finally, I guess I wanna test my mettle. Can I resist? Would I throw it all away for a little fun on the side? I'd like to think I wouldn't. Perhaps I'm playing with fire. I guess we'll find out.

You can literally read a book on inner game , sex and seduction, and get the results you want. Make sex fun.